Finding that inner calm...
All I can think about right now is all the bad things that have been happening in the past few days and it has taken it's toll on my body and my spirit. What I have I learned from all this? What can I can from this happening? I think a need for a thicker skin is in order. I have left myself vulnerable around people once again and I have only myself to blame when people do things that people most definately continue to do; be treacherous, catty, and down right mean.
Of all things I think what needs to happen is segregation of my feelings that have occured in this particular circumstance away from my place of living... my home.. I think allowing it to affect me only makes the wounds deeper and the cuts take more time to heal.
My life needs to be surrounded by people of like-mindedness towards an open mind an living a open lifestyle... intellectuals seem to be harder to find.. especially in a place where fundamentalism still reigns high. I think I have found it in small pockets but to actually develop deep and lasting friendships from people so close minded I have found to be more than once a futile situation.. and I am the one on the short end of that stick.
SO with all that vague generality behind me.. I can say that it took me a few days of misery and tears, but I think I found my middle ground and will stand firmly upon that for awhile. After all... how can I let petty people take even 1% of me away from my children.. even for one second. I can't.. I won't...
Of all things I think what needs to happen is segregation of my feelings that have occured in this particular circumstance away from my place of living... my home.. I think allowing it to affect me only makes the wounds deeper and the cuts take more time to heal.
My life needs to be surrounded by people of like-mindedness towards an open mind an living a open lifestyle... intellectuals seem to be harder to find.. especially in a place where fundamentalism still reigns high. I think I have found it in small pockets but to actually develop deep and lasting friendships from people so close minded I have found to be more than once a futile situation.. and I am the one on the short end of that stick.
SO with all that vague generality behind me.. I can say that it took me a few days of misery and tears, but I think I found my middle ground and will stand firmly upon that for awhile. After all... how can I let petty people take even 1% of me away from my children.. even for one second. I can't.. I won't...