Being a mom can be lonely
it can also be the only source of true friendships. I am finding out the hard way that sometimes your non mom friends can be quite bothersome and uncaring when it comes to the needs of you and your child. I sometimes have to catch myself from being a raving mad woman to them for being so naive sometimes, but I think I have controlled myself well.
My Buddha Baby really has been the catalyst for most of my new found friends and has lead me into so many new and exciting adventures I never would have thought of without him. I miss sometimes being able to sit and think and do creative things... but I know that being with him right now in this moment is priceless.. even if it can be somewhat lonely.
We've gone to the ER/doctor twice in the past few weeks.. one for a severe virus ( that everyone caught) and the other time because he fell and broke his little collar bone. The first time I had my mom to talk to , but the second time I was alone during all of it and I sat around looking at all the dad's who came to help out. I really do sometimes feel like a single parent. And I can't say how I feel to my husband because it's not his fault for being away so much and it would be easy just to blame him for this gaping loneliness...
My mother did it...my dad was home mostly on weekends.. missed birthdays.. and we turned out okay. I guess I just miss being in a house full of people. Isolation is one of the worst things a person like myself can be put into.
Here's hoping that this fall we can get out more and feel not so alone :) and it's already started.. I just need to give it time :) and have plenty of that!
My Buddha Baby really has been the catalyst for most of my new found friends and has lead me into so many new and exciting adventures I never would have thought of without him. I miss sometimes being able to sit and think and do creative things... but I know that being with him right now in this moment is priceless.. even if it can be somewhat lonely.
We've gone to the ER/doctor twice in the past few weeks.. one for a severe virus ( that everyone caught) and the other time because he fell and broke his little collar bone. The first time I had my mom to talk to , but the second time I was alone during all of it and I sat around looking at all the dad's who came to help out. I really do sometimes feel like a single parent. And I can't say how I feel to my husband because it's not his fault for being away so much and it would be easy just to blame him for this gaping loneliness...
My mother did it...my dad was home mostly on weekends.. missed birthdays.. and we turned out okay. I guess I just miss being in a house full of people. Isolation is one of the worst things a person like myself can be put into.
Here's hoping that this fall we can get out more and feel not so alone :) and it's already started.. I just need to give it time :) and have plenty of that!