[Music Rec] Used to the Darkness by Des Rocs
Some days you're just minding your own business (or rather, your business is very much minding you, "minding" here meaning holding you hostage with no days off forever someplace dark and sad), and then a song comes on and PUNCHES YOU IN THE STOMACH WITH WINCHESTER FEELINGS. Like, my stomach literally hurts there's so many Winchester feelings in there.
I've made mistakes, Lord struck me down
Caught in a landslide, lost underground
I hear them gates, swing open wide
Come close to midnight, hell fade me down
And then my eyes got used to the darkness
And everyone that I knew
Was lost and so long forgotten after you
Now would you pray before you twist the knife?
Yeah, would you take my hand and take a life?
I'm too damn young to give up on the night
I'm used to the darkness, I'm used to the darkness
I'm just a man, I'm only flesh and bone
I can't blame it back on everything I've done
And now there's no-one else left to love
I'm used to the darkness, I'm used to the darkness
I like this song for them because I think reading the lyrics on their own they sound kind of wet blanket, lol--but there's this edge of defiance to the way its sung, to the insistence of the guitar strums. The chorus makes the questions feel as though they're not really questions--but not because the speaker actually knows the answers. Maybe they're invitations, except the speaker doesn't really want his interlocutor to say yes (but he also does). There are obvious hell/demon deal at midnight visuals at work here that seem like they'd suggest S4 (possibly intercut with 5x22 and S6/7) but in my mind I think this song actually belongs a lot later. What's one more nightmare?
At the beginning of the month, finchandsparrow and I had the great pleasure of going to the opening of quickreaver's gallery show, which was a totally sublime experience in all possible ways. <33333 What a treat!
On the drive home, I played a CD I made in 2018 called "Sick Beatz 2018" that has a lot of songs I associated with Cars and some with SPN, and finchandsparrow and I got into a conversation about whether there was a difference in how strongly we felt about our Sam songs vs a Dean songs. Weirdly enough as the Samgirl between us she felt more strongly about her Dean songs and I, as the Deangirl, think I probably feel more strongly about my Sam songs! But now that I've kept thinking about it I also think that I have more songs that are for both of them (or for particular seasons) than I do for them separately.
Click to viewI've made mistakes, Lord struck me down
Caught in a landslide, lost underground
I hear them gates, swing open wide
Come close to midnight, hell fade me down
And then my eyes got used to the darkness
And everyone that I knew
Was lost and so long forgotten after you
Now would you pray before you twist the knife?
Yeah, would you take my hand and take a life?
I'm too damn young to give up on the night
I'm used to the darkness, I'm used to the darkness
I'm just a man, I'm only flesh and bone
I can't blame it back on everything I've done
And now there's no-one else left to love
I'm used to the darkness, I'm used to the darkness
I like this song for them because I think reading the lyrics on their own they sound kind of wet blanket, lol--but there's this edge of defiance to the way its sung, to the insistence of the guitar strums. The chorus makes the questions feel as though they're not really questions--but not because the speaker actually knows the answers. Maybe they're invitations, except the speaker doesn't really want his interlocutor to say yes (but he also does). There are obvious hell/demon deal at midnight visuals at work here that seem like they'd suggest S4 (possibly intercut with 5x22 and S6/7) but in my mind I think this song actually belongs a lot later. What's one more nightmare?
At the beginning of the month, finchandsparrow and I had the great pleasure of going to the opening of quickreaver's gallery show, which was a totally sublime experience in all possible ways. <33333 What a treat!
On the drive home, I played a CD I made in 2018 called "Sick Beatz 2018" that has a lot of songs I associated with Cars and some with SPN, and finchandsparrow and I got into a conversation about whether there was a difference in how strongly we felt about our Sam songs vs a Dean songs. Weirdly enough as the Samgirl between us she felt more strongly about her Dean songs and I, as the Deangirl, think I probably feel more strongly about my Sam songs! But now that I've kept thinking about it I also think that I have more songs that are for both of them (or for particular seasons) than I do for them separately.