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You shouldn't really trust anything that transform in a monster once a month.
I feel like I am forever stuck. You know, my sister is moving soon with her husband. Summer come, my other sister's family will relocate due to her husband's job. That mean by September, I will be alone in New York with my parents. I am working on my college application but it's almost May and seriously, how long does it take to finish a college application?
It seems like I am the only one who really want to move out the state. Clean slate, new experiences, no more confusion between me and my sister, new life.
I am tired of living here, in the same state but mostly on the east coast. I want to be an adult and have my own place where I can decorate it the way I want it to be. I want to how to do bills and taxes. I want to have a real job with real paycheck. I want to know what the real world is like. I want to have real relationships and normal converastion with people, deaf or not.
I tried to communicate with my oldest sister. But it felt like I am just the babysitter who is stuck to mutter a word or two. Tonight there was a debate about the package of chocolate sugar cookies. After school, the whole thing was gone except for one cookie. Even though I dislike choocolate cookies in general, I ate the last piece. Then I spent the next hours worrying about my sister's reaction. I knew she'd point finger at me or maybe the boys would say it was me. I told her the boys ate them all. Her oldest said there was three cookies left when he came home. I was going to simply say with my voice, "The boys ate them all but I had the last cookie." My sister however refuse to let me speak demanding for me to answer her question: Did I eat any of it. I tried telling her but she won't so I gave in and said yes just one out of the whole thing. Didn't think I'd feel this way. What the fuck.
But like I said, don't take me seriously since I bleed once a month. Hormones are everywhere. I've been finishing up the American version of Being Human season one so I think I am pretending to be either a ghost, a werewolf, or a vampire.
I feel like I am forever stuck. You know, my sister is moving soon with her husband. Summer come, my other sister's family will relocate due to her husband's job. That mean by September, I will be alone in New York with my parents. I am working on my college application but it's almost May and seriously, how long does it take to finish a college application?
It seems like I am the only one who really want to move out the state. Clean slate, new experiences, no more confusion between me and my sister, new life.
I am tired of living here, in the same state but mostly on the east coast. I want to be an adult and have my own place where I can decorate it the way I want it to be. I want to how to do bills and taxes. I want to have a real job with real paycheck. I want to know what the real world is like. I want to have real relationships and normal converastion with people, deaf or not.
I tried to communicate with my oldest sister. But it felt like I am just the babysitter who is stuck to mutter a word or two. Tonight there was a debate about the package of chocolate sugar cookies. After school, the whole thing was gone except for one cookie. Even though I dislike choocolate cookies in general, I ate the last piece. Then I spent the next hours worrying about my sister's reaction. I knew she'd point finger at me or maybe the boys would say it was me. I told her the boys ate them all. Her oldest said there was three cookies left when he came home. I was going to simply say with my voice, "The boys ate them all but I had the last cookie." My sister however refuse to let me speak demanding for me to answer her question: Did I eat any of it. I tried telling her but she won't so I gave in and said yes just one out of the whole thing. Didn't think I'd feel this way. What the fuck.
But like I said, don't take me seriously since I bleed once a month. Hormones are everywhere. I've been finishing up the American version of Being Human season one so I think I am pretending to be either a ghost, a werewolf, or a vampire.