so i can't sleep...
and i have a feeling that has something to do with the 1litre of blue charge (yes asda's cheap redbull) i managed to consume this evening. damn those girls feeding me vodka, i'm a happy lightweight.
so updateyness i guess, seeing as i could play wow but i'd just die and start sulking.
yesterday, or monday seeing as it's now wednesday, ben and i hit 3 years. i went to a hairdressers and didnt cry although i was wringing my hands the entire time (i had meant to get my hair cut for valentines day but chickened out... and every day since). at the time it looked rubbish but hair always needs time to settle before it looks any good, im pleased with it now. anyway that was my effort to look special, ben took me out to the tapas bar in canterbury. i can't believe that place was empty... you should all try it! the food is awesome, its good value, you can bring your own wine for £3 opening charge and if you're there by 7:15 you can get 3 tapas for the price of two! and of course the food is fantastic... my personal favourites are the slow cooked vegetables, the veggie paella and the batatas bravas (potatoes of the brave! oh yes!) so we went and had all that, took a bottle of champagne that my mum sent me for my 21st that i never drank, and then decided to eat even more and it was such a bargain! i love food. and the waitress was so sweet, she wrote congratulations on our bill so I kept it :))
so three years. seems like forever, in a good way obviously. but i dunno, i feel like i've lost sense of time. like if we're not together next year for four years, it doesnt matter because things between us at the moment are so good, i've never been able to be so close to someone and i just appreciate it now. in another way it feels so timeless, because we know that no matter how stupid i can be or how ignorant he gets or how badly we argue about it, we won't actually leave. it's good, and we like it, so it is.
but i will have to remember not to let him get into bed first when he's drunk as he takes up a lot of space and i dont have the heart to move him...
the vodka in me in sending me to sleep but the caffeine in me is keeping my mind ticking. and i actually had to sing the babylon zoo song caffeine to spell that right, ah well ^_^
oh and i finally made a reallly *good* banoffee pie, all thanks to carnation who now sell ready-caramelised condensed milk! I had a bad afternoon on friday boiling tins of evap for 6.5 hours waiting for them to caramelise with no sugar in them, bah.
and some things over the weekend made me really, really angry.
grrr. but accidents or not and personal accusations or not i can't really do anything, i hate it when i can't do anything.
so updateyness i guess, seeing as i could play wow but i'd just die and start sulking.
yesterday, or monday seeing as it's now wednesday, ben and i hit 3 years. i went to a hairdressers and didnt cry although i was wringing my hands the entire time (i had meant to get my hair cut for valentines day but chickened out... and every day since). at the time it looked rubbish but hair always needs time to settle before it looks any good, im pleased with it now. anyway that was my effort to look special, ben took me out to the tapas bar in canterbury. i can't believe that place was empty... you should all try it! the food is awesome, its good value, you can bring your own wine for £3 opening charge and if you're there by 7:15 you can get 3 tapas for the price of two! and of course the food is fantastic... my personal favourites are the slow cooked vegetables, the veggie paella and the batatas bravas (potatoes of the brave! oh yes!) so we went and had all that, took a bottle of champagne that my mum sent me for my 21st that i never drank, and then decided to eat even more and it was such a bargain! i love food. and the waitress was so sweet, she wrote congratulations on our bill so I kept it :))
so three years. seems like forever, in a good way obviously. but i dunno, i feel like i've lost sense of time. like if we're not together next year for four years, it doesnt matter because things between us at the moment are so good, i've never been able to be so close to someone and i just appreciate it now. in another way it feels so timeless, because we know that no matter how stupid i can be or how ignorant he gets or how badly we argue about it, we won't actually leave. it's good, and we like it, so it is.
but i will have to remember not to let him get into bed first when he's drunk as he takes up a lot of space and i dont have the heart to move him...
the vodka in me in sending me to sleep but the caffeine in me is keeping my mind ticking. and i actually had to sing the babylon zoo song caffeine to spell that right, ah well ^_^
oh and i finally made a reallly *good* banoffee pie, all thanks to carnation who now sell ready-caramelised condensed milk! I had a bad afternoon on friday boiling tins of evap for 6.5 hours waiting for them to caramelise with no sugar in them, bah.
and some things over the weekend made me really, really angry.
grrr. but accidents or not and personal accusations or not i can't really do anything, i hate it when i can't do anything.