too fast :s
got a bit upset recently... similar to feelings in dubai, that everyone else seems to have special friends and im not actually anyones friend... whenever someone spends time with me they always would rather be with someone else but nowhere out there is anyone who would rather be with me. i dont really understand it, i always try to be nice and friendly but it still seems to get me nowhere.
spend sunday in london with my aunt, two cousins and brother, and i really had a fantastic time. this made me realise there are people out there who care i'm just looking/staying in the wrong places perhaps. went ice skating at the out door rink by the science museum, i have only been once before when I was three so that doesnt count... was dreading it as i have an awful sense of balance (in windsurfing you are actually holding on to something the entire time...) everyone said its just like roller skating but i've never been any good at that either... spent the first 3 'rounds' clinging to the rail, gradually got the hang of it and could skate about 10m or so unaided by the end of the session :D i am so pleased. and i did a fantastic fall (my one and only!) seconds before they called us it. i did look pretty good falling over in a skirt however. i *am* hardcore. tried to meet up with ish but due to phone complications (i am so useless) couldnt get in touch with him in time, so have arranged to spend a day in london sometime in spring, and also to go see my aunt so she can finally meet ben properly instead of the sub-zombified state he was in after hitchin. also my boobs seem to have exploded over the past few weeks. may need fresh bra's ^_^
course... well...i do hate it, but what can ya do! things have been falling to pieces recently and my 'friends' who are also the group i am working with cannot be bothered to meet up anymore let alone communicate. the plan: auditions this thursday, filming next thursday. problems: surprise birthday present from ben is happening from thursday to monday (the gist i have of it so far is a dungeon with an en-suite cave where there could be parties...erm) so i will miss most or all of the auditions. thats fine, i thought, as long as im there for the filming. EHHH wrong! Spoke to my mum who reminded me that i am actually flying to cyprus at 6:30am that morning, so no filming for me. have tried to get in touch with group, only managed to talk to bryon yesterday and mark and adam ran away immediately after they finished the test today (even though we always used to go for a drink afterwards in mungoes...) so if they don't want a face to face explaination thats fine by me. test didnt go so badly, actually sort of understood it or something. we have a group presentation tomorrow which we have each individually written 3 slides for and not met up once to talk about it or rehearse or anything... oh and also I have ASP to do, an entire ecommernce website that i've not even really started and will have today... maybe an hour or two tomorrow... maybe some time on monday, tuesday and then wednesday night i will have to upload it before i go. unless i could do it from cyprus. hmm...
so on with that i get.
spend sunday in london with my aunt, two cousins and brother, and i really had a fantastic time. this made me realise there are people out there who care i'm just looking/staying in the wrong places perhaps. went ice skating at the out door rink by the science museum, i have only been once before when I was three so that doesnt count... was dreading it as i have an awful sense of balance (in windsurfing you are actually holding on to something the entire time...) everyone said its just like roller skating but i've never been any good at that either... spent the first 3 'rounds' clinging to the rail, gradually got the hang of it and could skate about 10m or so unaided by the end of the session :D i am so pleased. and i did a fantastic fall (my one and only!) seconds before they called us it. i did look pretty good falling over in a skirt however. i *am* hardcore. tried to meet up with ish but due to phone complications (i am so useless) couldnt get in touch with him in time, so have arranged to spend a day in london sometime in spring, and also to go see my aunt so she can finally meet ben properly instead of the sub-zombified state he was in after hitchin. also my boobs seem to have exploded over the past few weeks. may need fresh bra's ^_^
course... well...i do hate it, but what can ya do! things have been falling to pieces recently and my 'friends' who are also the group i am working with cannot be bothered to meet up anymore let alone communicate. the plan: auditions this thursday, filming next thursday. problems: surprise birthday present from ben is happening from thursday to monday (the gist i have of it so far is a dungeon with an en-suite cave where there could be parties...erm) so i will miss most or all of the auditions. thats fine, i thought, as long as im there for the filming. EHHH wrong! Spoke to my mum who reminded me that i am actually flying to cyprus at 6:30am that morning, so no filming for me. have tried to get in touch with group, only managed to talk to bryon yesterday and mark and adam ran away immediately after they finished the test today (even though we always used to go for a drink afterwards in mungoes...) so if they don't want a face to face explaination thats fine by me. test didnt go so badly, actually sort of understood it or something. we have a group presentation tomorrow which we have each individually written 3 slides for and not met up once to talk about it or rehearse or anything... oh and also I have ASP to do, an entire ecommernce website that i've not even really started and will have today... maybe an hour or two tomorrow... maybe some time on monday, tuesday and then wednesday night i will have to upload it before i go. unless i could do it from cyprus. hmm...
so on with that i get.