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My life has been really mixed so far. Alot of things have happened and i don't know if im ready to deal with it, but i guess thats not an option, huh? first of all, Tonie's gone, and of course i talk to her on the fone and stuff, but its not the same as seeing her everyday. She seems to be the only person i can really talk to who won't judge me on everything i say or do. haha, tonie, ur probably reading this right now, but itz all true. Second, winter formal has gotten everyone acting freaky, including me. i asked him and he told me that he thinks going with a date equals a bad time, so to me, that translates to i don't want to go with you, you ugly desperate bitch. okay, i know he doesn't think of me in that way cuz he told me he didn't, but still, i'm kinda wishing for a miracle here and i can't seem to move on, or go forward, im in neutral. Third, i joined track, which now, is going so well for me and i love it, but at first, i was ready to kill myself, and so was my coach. she kinda got sick of me always having to leave early becuase of asthma and stuff, but i'm okay now. I also have had alot on mind lately. Not really stuff i wanna tell the entire world, but just stuff. some of it is small, trivial, and not reaslly that important, and some of it is stuff that really gets to me. i was talking to devin the other day and i was just really stressed out and tried. he helped me figure out what my problem is. He told me that i let too much shit get to me. At first i was like wtf?! but then i was like, holy crap thats true! So ya, im trying to take is easy and not let so much of the bad shit in the world to get to me. Thanks, Devin!
Luv Always,
Gayle
Luv Always,
Gayle