speechless
Well, it seems that everytime I help someone, they just keep pushing me for more. To the brink of emotional blackmail.
Im not a moron, not by a long shot. I only need to be asked once, or explained to once, and I will not forget the request/favour/statement/whatever it may be. Yet it seems my kindness is being mistaken for a weakness.
There is nothing more insulting than doing the best you can and then some, only to be snubbed & repeatedly asked the same goddamn questions.
Right now, I feel like Im being used for one thing only { AND IT DEFINATELY AINT SEX,pfft }. I dont even care anymore. I know I aint loved. I know now, that I am merely just another easy way out. That's ok, I just don't like being led along to beleive one thinks of me in a certain way, only to find out that it was all lies...Just to "butter me up"... Perhaps I really am stupid, and a moron.
Tired of battling, physically, emotionally, financially. What am I gaining from this? Not alot really. I have no webcam, therefore I'm useless. The ones I love don't REALLY love me back. Not if Im of no use. Seems everything is conditional in this world. And one sided.
Yeah... all my mates can count on happy go lucky Kaliah to fish them outta the shit, talk them outta suicide, listen to their issues, and so on. Yet, yet in spite of all my efforts, it just isnt good enough. I will not love again EVER!! How rediculous of this much older girl to think that she is in fact desirable.lol. God I really am thick! Actions speak volumes, and the actions of many lately have been severly disappointing...
Should have known better. The novelty wears thin already.... I know it, I sense it. To merely be hidden away, never mentioned really in public, and as usual treated one sided.
Oh dont stress, the promised ones, I am a lady of my word. The deal is still bonafide. But I offcially give up after that. Always here to help.Feel like an outcast. Feel used up. And only wanted for things that will benefit others. Sorry the madness within is rearing its ugly head. I will miss you terribly. No doubt. But Im sure you will all get over it rather quickly...lol....
Goodbye, to those that matter & those that care.
KK
Im not a moron, not by a long shot. I only need to be asked once, or explained to once, and I will not forget the request/favour/statement/whatever it may be. Yet it seems my kindness is being mistaken for a weakness.
There is nothing more insulting than doing the best you can and then some, only to be snubbed & repeatedly asked the same goddamn questions.
Right now, I feel like Im being used for one thing only { AND IT DEFINATELY AINT SEX,pfft }. I dont even care anymore. I know I aint loved. I know now, that I am merely just another easy way out. That's ok, I just don't like being led along to beleive one thinks of me in a certain way, only to find out that it was all lies...Just to "butter me up"... Perhaps I really am stupid, and a moron.
Tired of battling, physically, emotionally, financially. What am I gaining from this? Not alot really. I have no webcam, therefore I'm useless. The ones I love don't REALLY love me back. Not if Im of no use. Seems everything is conditional in this world. And one sided.
Yeah... all my mates can count on happy go lucky Kaliah to fish them outta the shit, talk them outta suicide, listen to their issues, and so on. Yet, yet in spite of all my efforts, it just isnt good enough. I will not love again EVER!! How rediculous of this much older girl to think that she is in fact desirable.lol. God I really am thick! Actions speak volumes, and the actions of many lately have been severly disappointing...
Should have known better. The novelty wears thin already.... I know it, I sense it. To merely be hidden away, never mentioned really in public, and as usual treated one sided.
Oh dont stress, the promised ones, I am a lady of my word. The deal is still bonafide. But I offcially give up after that. Always here to help.Feel like an outcast. Feel used up. And only wanted for things that will benefit others. Sorry the madness within is rearing its ugly head. I will miss you terribly. No doubt. But Im sure you will all get over it rather quickly...lol....
Goodbye, to those that matter & those that care.
KK