PUNISHMENT & EPIPHANY'S
Some of you who read this may not fully understand why I do this. Or rather, put myself in this position...
Take my ex for example,,, the biggest prick you will ever meet, but he is ALWAYS a prick. He'd really punish me, mess with my head, sleep with other women, go out for sometimes 2weeks at a time without so much as a call to my friends to tell me he is alive at least.{ He behaved like this after he raped me & I fell pregnant}
Then come home smelling of pussy. Now thats what I call absoloutly disgusting.
To submit yourself to a Master though, is a whole different matter. Yes I am a proud woman, therefore have trouble adjusting at times, but I think last night gave me an epiphany. I questioned my Master, much more insulting I left his company in front of company.Why? For my own selfish reasons. I was sent to the corner, like a little girl for 10 minutes. Yep, I did it.At first I thought, shit I do not have a watch on, its raining and its fucking cold down here. Then I closed my eyes. I turned off my hearing aid and I thought. At first I thought "WHAT THE HELL ARE DOING GIRL?" But I sat there, and thought about prisoners of war, guantanamo bay, vietnam, enslavement, entrapment even.... Then magic hour. This is what is called an epiphany for those who do not know..... It is a solution to the problem. My Master cares for me very much. He calls for me every day. He does like having me around him whenever he can, and he doesn't leave me in the dark, not knowing where I stand.He wishes for me to be with him most of his time when I do get to him in rl, and most important he cares for my welfare, well being, if I get enough rest enough to eat,etc etc.. At least with a Master I know who I am, what to expect { more or less} and I know my place.I'd much rather be in this position than in a prison cell 23hours a day, or a shitty relationship like the one I just explained.I am a very intelligent woman, with a very high I.Q but I dont beleive in " whats yer i.q?" because its a combination of life experience and study.
Anyway, so I sat in this cold, yukky corner {my own choice} and meditated on my reasons, on why bother being a slavegirl if all I will do is question my Master, and that's where a calm coated my very being. This man would not be doing this if he didn't care, he genuinely likes to know what I am doing and what I have been up to. Perhaps for control reasons as well, but what decent Master wouldn't have control?
I am happy with who I am. I am very content with my Master and the way he treats me. It's a mutual agreement between 2 people, I am cared about and I care for my Master. The punishment merely humbled me. Who the fuck do I think I am anyway? {I use the swearing for expression only, I do not speak like this.I do not speak much at all!! lol}
So, Master, this one goes out to you. I know who I am now, and I know my place in this world. All I can say is thankyou for teaching this lesson, it helped me more than you will ever really know....
I 'll post another about my day after I have eaten and showered etc....
I am YOUR girl.
KK
Take my ex for example,,, the biggest prick you will ever meet, but he is ALWAYS a prick. He'd really punish me, mess with my head, sleep with other women, go out for sometimes 2weeks at a time without so much as a call to my friends to tell me he is alive at least.{ He behaved like this after he raped me & I fell pregnant}
Then come home smelling of pussy. Now thats what I call absoloutly disgusting.
To submit yourself to a Master though, is a whole different matter. Yes I am a proud woman, therefore have trouble adjusting at times, but I think last night gave me an epiphany. I questioned my Master, much more insulting I left his company in front of company.Why? For my own selfish reasons. I was sent to the corner, like a little girl for 10 minutes. Yep, I did it.At first I thought, shit I do not have a watch on, its raining and its fucking cold down here. Then I closed my eyes. I turned off my hearing aid and I thought. At first I thought "WHAT THE HELL ARE DOING GIRL?" But I sat there, and thought about prisoners of war, guantanamo bay, vietnam, enslavement, entrapment even.... Then magic hour. This is what is called an epiphany for those who do not know..... It is a solution to the problem. My Master cares for me very much. He calls for me every day. He does like having me around him whenever he can, and he doesn't leave me in the dark, not knowing where I stand.He wishes for me to be with him most of his time when I do get to him in rl, and most important he cares for my welfare, well being, if I get enough rest enough to eat,etc etc.. At least with a Master I know who I am, what to expect { more or less} and I know my place.I'd much rather be in this position than in a prison cell 23hours a day, or a shitty relationship like the one I just explained.I am a very intelligent woman, with a very high I.Q but I dont beleive in " whats yer i.q?" because its a combination of life experience and study.
Anyway, so I sat in this cold, yukky corner {my own choice} and meditated on my reasons, on why bother being a slavegirl if all I will do is question my Master, and that's where a calm coated my very being. This man would not be doing this if he didn't care, he genuinely likes to know what I am doing and what I have been up to. Perhaps for control reasons as well, but what decent Master wouldn't have control?
I am happy with who I am. I am very content with my Master and the way he treats me. It's a mutual agreement between 2 people, I am cared about and I care for my Master. The punishment merely humbled me. Who the fuck do I think I am anyway? {I use the swearing for expression only, I do not speak like this.I do not speak much at all!! lol}
So, Master, this one goes out to you. I know who I am now, and I know my place in this world. All I can say is thankyou for teaching this lesson, it helped me more than you will ever really know....
I 'll post another about my day after I have eaten and showered etc....
I am YOUR girl.
KK