Blessing you with every kiss
So this is going to be a longer then most post....................
"And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand
Well he's on the table and he's gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What they're doing here
And your friends have left you
You've been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know"
~~~~~~~~~3EB~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'm going to not let it bother me, I'm not wasting anymore time. I can't make people do anything they don't want to, especially love me.............I would rather be a friend then nothing............so I suppose that's that. This time around it feels different. All I want is a friendship, don't get me wrong I still think it would be damn sexy to have an "encounter" with him but its developed over the past 5 years. Its more then that he's intelligent, funny and has a good heart. But Im sick of the chase, I don't want to do that anymore. Its kinda weird, after all these years that my thoughts would take such a turn. I'm not looking for a romantic relationship with him anymore, obviously my thoughts may change later but for now I'm looking forward to having someone else to hang out with. But of course he has to decide that, I will always be open for a good talk or hanging out, but the choice ultimately lies with him. I'm not going to talk about it anymore. The more I talk, the more I get myself into trouble.
I never regret the things I do, only the things I don't.
"this vacation's useless
these white pills aren't kind
I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive
i missed the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9
and slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights
I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have
the days have come and gone
our lives went by so fast
I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor
where i laid and told you but you sweared you loved me more
do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me"
Got a call from the drunken ex again. "Luisa I love you...............come back" Yeah, I'm going to come back to you when you have a girlfriend. I can't seem to get rid of him.............he keeps calling. I told him flat out it was only going to be a quick fling, I wasn't looking for anything serious with a druggie who didn't finish high school and cheats with anything that has boobs.......of course I didn't say that point blank to his face. That was in a past life..................I'm going to quit answering the phone.
So tomorrow is the concert, I can't wait! Me and Stephie are going to get sloppy drunk and then totally go at it in the mosh pit! Ha..........got you to smile :-* MMMMMMMMMMMMM sooooooooooooooooooooo hot. As Steph says "I just want to lick his sexy bald head"
Speaking of sexy men............
Oh Johnny Rzeznik, I would lick you too..........
I can't forget my other fave hottie
Ahhhhhhhhh gotta love those hot lead singers............
Anyway enough of that................
Its 8:45 on a Saturday night at the big Pondo. Were all counting down the minutes until were free. 8:46, 8:47, 8:48 a car pulls into the parking lot. You can feel the tensions run high. The car turns around and leaves. Pondo lets out a big sigh of relief. 8:49, 8:50, 8:51 another car pulls in and stays. Everyone is immersed in anger. 8:52, 8:53, 8:54, yet another car pulls in ( Pondo has been empty for a good 20 minutes) Finally the big moment.....9:00. Were still all tied cause of the idiots that came in late. 9:30, a full half hour after we locked, the morons are still there. I politely ask them if their finished with the buffet. They say yes. I take things down. 10 minutes later they come up and complain that most of the food is gone. Idiots. Said they were done. They don't leave until almost 10. Stupid people suck.
"The poison that runs it's course through her
Pale white skin with strawberry gashes all over
Scold me, failed her
If only I'd held on tighter to her
Pale white skin that twisted and withered away from me
Watch me lose her
It's almost like losing myself
Give her my soul
and let them take somebody else
Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said kill me faster
with strawberry gashes all over all over me"
I've been thinking more then usual lately..........I know, Im scared too :-P I love my life. I love the people in it and the places I've. Sure I've had really rotten stuff happen to me, and I mean REALLY ROTTEN. But I came through those storms. So what if Im neurotic and depressed, so what if I have my psychotic days. I don't think I would change anything. Im honored to have such supportive people in my life, people who I know would come to my rescue at any time of day or night. I love you all.
"And the world keeps spinning round
my world's upside down
and I wouldn't change a thing"
~~~~~~LH~~~~~~~
"And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand
Well he's on the table and he's gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What they're doing here
And your friends have left you
You've been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know"
~~~~~~~~~3EB~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'm going to not let it bother me, I'm not wasting anymore time. I can't make people do anything they don't want to, especially love me.............I would rather be a friend then nothing............so I suppose that's that. This time around it feels different. All I want is a friendship, don't get me wrong I still think it would be damn sexy to have an "encounter" with him but its developed over the past 5 years. Its more then that he's intelligent, funny and has a good heart. But Im sick of the chase, I don't want to do that anymore. Its kinda weird, after all these years that my thoughts would take such a turn. I'm not looking for a romantic relationship with him anymore, obviously my thoughts may change later but for now I'm looking forward to having someone else to hang out with. But of course he has to decide that, I will always be open for a good talk or hanging out, but the choice ultimately lies with him. I'm not going to talk about it anymore. The more I talk, the more I get myself into trouble.
I never regret the things I do, only the things I don't.
"this vacation's useless
these white pills aren't kind
I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive
i missed the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9
and slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights
I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have
the days have come and gone
our lives went by so fast
I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor
where i laid and told you but you sweared you loved me more
do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me"
Got a call from the drunken ex again. "Luisa I love you...............come back" Yeah, I'm going to come back to you when you have a girlfriend. I can't seem to get rid of him.............he keeps calling. I told him flat out it was only going to be a quick fling, I wasn't looking for anything serious with a druggie who didn't finish high school and cheats with anything that has boobs.......of course I didn't say that point blank to his face. That was in a past life..................I'm going to quit answering the phone.
So tomorrow is the concert, I can't wait! Me and Stephie are going to get sloppy drunk and then totally go at it in the mosh pit! Ha..........got you to smile :-* MMMMMMMMMMMMM sooooooooooooooooooooo hot. As Steph says "I just want to lick his sexy bald head"
Speaking of sexy men............
Oh Johnny Rzeznik, I would lick you too..........
I can't forget my other fave hottie
Ahhhhhhhhh gotta love those hot lead singers............
Anyway enough of that................
Its 8:45 on a Saturday night at the big Pondo. Were all counting down the minutes until were free. 8:46, 8:47, 8:48 a car pulls into the parking lot. You can feel the tensions run high. The car turns around and leaves. Pondo lets out a big sigh of relief. 8:49, 8:50, 8:51 another car pulls in and stays. Everyone is immersed in anger. 8:52, 8:53, 8:54, yet another car pulls in ( Pondo has been empty for a good 20 minutes) Finally the big moment.....9:00. Were still all tied cause of the idiots that came in late. 9:30, a full half hour after we locked, the morons are still there. I politely ask them if their finished with the buffet. They say yes. I take things down. 10 minutes later they come up and complain that most of the food is gone. Idiots. Said they were done. They don't leave until almost 10. Stupid people suck.
"The poison that runs it's course through her
Pale white skin with strawberry gashes all over
Scold me, failed her
If only I'd held on tighter to her
Pale white skin that twisted and withered away from me
Watch me lose her
It's almost like losing myself
Give her my soul
and let them take somebody else
Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said kill me faster
with strawberry gashes all over all over me"
I've been thinking more then usual lately..........I know, Im scared too :-P I love my life. I love the people in it and the places I've. Sure I've had really rotten stuff happen to me, and I mean REALLY ROTTEN. But I came through those storms. So what if Im neurotic and depressed, so what if I have my psychotic days. I don't think I would change anything. Im honored to have such supportive people in my life, people who I know would come to my rescue at any time of day or night. I love you all.
"And the world keeps spinning round
my world's upside down
and I wouldn't change a thing"
~~~~~~LH~~~~~~~