Friends with????
Just talked to Luke today and some yesterday. He is doing alright. He has agreed to take up my CoP when he returns. I am happy with this as he knows more about me in that respect than most, including current title holders, and will be able to do well. Beyond that, we will see. I hesitate to say much as I do not wish to misrepresent anything. Enough said.
I still have welts from last night and realized that my neck was cut open this morning. All were by accident, but I will need to let Jeff know so that he can properly clean the floggers, as blood corrodes and eats a great many materials. Nothing is too bad and it should be healed by the end of the week. I still enjoyed it though, more want than sense.
I go back to work tomorrow. Yee-frigin-ha.
I also went to the gym today, and got a good workout. Enjoyed it. It was quiet there. I will endulge in some tea before bed, as I know I will not be sleeping tonight, or if I do it will only be nightmares. I am officially out of all of my meds until the end of the month, and have no way to pay for the refill until then. I may go see some old friends, but I hope it doesn't go to that level of desperation. I will take some herbals and such, but I cannot take them in doses strong enough to do much, before they are toxic. Only 8 more days. I will call my therapist again, but won't be able to see her either until after the turn of the month. Maybe I can bum some sample packs to get me through. ...................I really have become a drug addict..............and I am helpless to stop it.
Onthe upshot, my payraise starts on either this check or the next. I will need to register for classes this week or next. The Fed money did not come in. I will re-apply for spring semester. I feel like a pendulum.
Had a brief encounter with "runner's high"....wow. Now I'm coming back off of it. Went for a walk last night- about 4.5 miles. It was nice, a little cold but good view of Estes. Ihave open sores on my feet though from not wearing socks- how could I be so stupid that the insides of my shoes are covered in blood??
Other than that the walk was relatively easy.. even going part of the way barefoot- a stupid move at the time, but I also hadn't seen my feet...
I bandaged them before we left the mountain, but they are worse tonight.. tomorrow will be interesting
And long. Any how... I'm just now putting off the inevitable, so I will sign out and go to bed, maybe to sleep, and I pray to a peaceful rest. Took muscle relaxants and pain pills.. should help a bit.
I still have welts from last night and realized that my neck was cut open this morning. All were by accident, but I will need to let Jeff know so that he can properly clean the floggers, as blood corrodes and eats a great many materials. Nothing is too bad and it should be healed by the end of the week. I still enjoyed it though, more want than sense.
I go back to work tomorrow. Yee-frigin-ha.
I also went to the gym today, and got a good workout. Enjoyed it. It was quiet there. I will endulge in some tea before bed, as I know I will not be sleeping tonight, or if I do it will only be nightmares. I am officially out of all of my meds until the end of the month, and have no way to pay for the refill until then. I may go see some old friends, but I hope it doesn't go to that level of desperation. I will take some herbals and such, but I cannot take them in doses strong enough to do much, before they are toxic. Only 8 more days. I will call my therapist again, but won't be able to see her either until after the turn of the month. Maybe I can bum some sample packs to get me through. ...................I really have become a drug addict..............and I am helpless to stop it.
Onthe upshot, my payraise starts on either this check or the next. I will need to register for classes this week or next. The Fed money did not come in. I will re-apply for spring semester. I feel like a pendulum.
Had a brief encounter with "runner's high"....wow. Now I'm coming back off of it. Went for a walk last night- about 4.5 miles. It was nice, a little cold but good view of Estes. Ihave open sores on my feet though from not wearing socks- how could I be so stupid that the insides of my shoes are covered in blood??
Other than that the walk was relatively easy.. even going part of the way barefoot- a stupid move at the time, but I also hadn't seen my feet...
I bandaged them before we left the mountain, but they are worse tonight.. tomorrow will be interesting
And long. Any how... I'm just now putting off the inevitable, so I will sign out and go to bed, maybe to sleep, and I pray to a peaceful rest. Took muscle relaxants and pain pills.. should help a bit.