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why am i the only one in the world that can't be me and have people like me? no one likes me that way it seems like. i think of you and you call me creepy. you think that way. when i think of something to say i say it, is that so wrong? why why do you make ME feel uncomfertable? alls i think about when i'm next to you is am i making you feel wierd. i don't want to touch you because i'm afraid you'll think i'm groping you. what ever happend to us? i miss you, i miss allot of things. i can't even talk to you anymore without being afraid of what i say. i feel like everyone is watching me when i'm around you because you showed them my entrys. i love myself why dosn't anyone else. now i'm just feeling sorry for myself. why do i do this? obvously you hate me so why do i worry about it? because you had a place in my heart. your not like chrissy or even brad. you really had a place and it's emty now. i never loved you i say that because you think i was infatuated with you i wasn't i'm not. what would you do if you lost one of your best friends in an instant? i only loved you as a friend it's not wrong to be attracted to friends is it? i'm not sorry if it is in your world because if you think that way your a hipocrit because you were attracted to danielle and korin, so don't give me that we are friends shit, face it you think i'm ugly and lets take brads words you'd never touch me. admit it. no regrets i learned from this. i will never tell anyone i like them again it allways gets me hurt.so fuck it. i'm done i don't feel any shame i will not apoligise. i know my place to go is not with you and thats where i will be. watch me from afar happy with my friends and the one person who gets me. the persons heart you broke. we are the broken hearts but at least we are together thats more to say than withj you. we barly even talk anymore. you lost allot when you lost me.