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Its so fucking cold in my house....I can't stand it.
I'm worn out.....I'm taking a break from school until march, I need to get my head on straight, I've been feeling a bit overly crazy. I can normally deal with depression, but this go round is different than anything I've ever had to deal with. I'm trying to figure it out on my own without drugs, shrinks, or boys.
fucking good luck to myself.
anyway.....this girl at work was all like " do you post on livejournal, you look familiar"
I felt like a douche. its totally weird seeing people that I might normally never talk to....but do because they have seen me post on here.
then I had this older spanish lady who smelled of very cheap perfume wanting me to do her makeup like 30 min before we closed tonight. I was on the edge of passing out from the day and her smell threw me over the edge. I had to hold my breath while doing it because I was seriously afraid I would pass out. At the end she was all like....you are so pretty, you are so beautiful.
whatever
I feel like a fucktard right now....I think that is where some of the depression is coming from. I look in the mirror and I see crap, which is totally not the norm for me....I usually think I'm fucking beautiful..but suddenly not so much.
I'm tired...I have to be back at work in 7 hours...so I probably so try and sleep.
merry fucking xmas if I don't post again.
I'm worn out.....I'm taking a break from school until march, I need to get my head on straight, I've been feeling a bit overly crazy. I can normally deal with depression, but this go round is different than anything I've ever had to deal with. I'm trying to figure it out on my own without drugs, shrinks, or boys.
fucking good luck to myself.
anyway.....this girl at work was all like " do you post on livejournal, you look familiar"
I felt like a douche. its totally weird seeing people that I might normally never talk to....but do because they have seen me post on here.
then I had this older spanish lady who smelled of very cheap perfume wanting me to do her makeup like 30 min before we closed tonight. I was on the edge of passing out from the day and her smell threw me over the edge. I had to hold my breath while doing it because I was seriously afraid I would pass out. At the end she was all like....you are so pretty, you are so beautiful.
whatever
I feel like a fucktard right now....I think that is where some of the depression is coming from. I look in the mirror and I see crap, which is totally not the norm for me....I usually think I'm fucking beautiful..but suddenly not so much.
I'm tired...I have to be back at work in 7 hours...so I probably so try and sleep.
merry fucking xmas if I don't post again.