Not Slashing Was Never An Option
So. Very strange things happen in the head when you fall in love with two fandoms at the same time. It's even weirder when one of them is Spartacus. And the other is Marvel movie-verse. DEAR GOD. And pictures like this:
are just no help at all with the brain-melting crossover.
And okay, Fassbender is just ridiculously hot. RIDICULOUSLY.
(I know I'm going to hell for thinking that smoking is just nnngh. But I can't help myself and I say this as someone whose dad's got lung cancer as we speak. I still love it. Though I'm not a smoker anymore -- maybe 2 or 3 a year -- some of the best sex of my life has involved cigarettes. In all kinds of permutations. That was more than you wanted to know.)
Anyway. I am totally torn between these two fannish loves who are duking it out in the arena of my mind. I'm not usually fannishly polyamourous. More of a serial monogamist. But here I am. Torn.
Spartacus fandom is, kinda, on the ground floor still... Which is always fun to get in on. However there is no novel-length fic as far as I can tell (yet), whereas of course Marvel is thriving. (And for me to really 100% fall for a fandom and not just the text itself, I need novel-length fic. Full on immersion, baby.) Conversely, new canon with Spartacus is happening right the fuck now -- EXCITING! -- whereas Marvel is happily waiting Avengers & Spidey, and so on, but the new!stuff isn't out yet. (And also, there's a lot of confusion as to what really IS canon, which I always find unsettling, because of comicsverse and cartoonverse and so on.) And then there's the fact that the relationships between the gladiators are just... really healthy. Which is, you know, kinda not my bag? To me, the most perfect love stories are ones where murder is, you know, always an option. And maybe the most intimate thing you can do to (or with) someone is destroy them...
(I've heard the first step is in admitting you have a problem...?)
So, you know... Loki/everyone.but.especially.Thor really works! That's where I started out, reading Thor, then segued into some straight up Avengers (nothing Tony Stark does is healthy!) and now am happily ensconced in X-Men First Class, which is, like, the PERFECT fandom for me. (I mean, first of all, what is this, people? I ask you.) And then there's Charles/Erik, which is, like, the platonic ideal of FoeYay. WHICH IS THE PERFECT THING, okay? God, I am so in love with them right now. Reading XMFC fic is like someone stroking a bruise perfectly and it is delicious and hurts and is AMAZING and doesn't stop, like ever, and my id is exploding in a world of squeegasm.
I do not think that this is compatible with the wonder that is Nasir and Agron. They are so nice to each other! They do not secretly hate/love each other. There is no universe in which they would kill each other for fun and lols. I am so out of clues as to how to write this? Let's remember that if I'm known for anything at all in fandom, it's for a love story that starts out with one of the parties killing the other during sex and goes downhill from there. And yet, LOOK AT THEIR FACES!!!! And the show itself is so brutal and deathsome and powerplay and OMG.
What do I do????
In conclusion, I am way too distracted from my dissertation. And I should probably do some work now.
are just no help at all with the brain-melting crossover.
And okay, Fassbender is just ridiculously hot. RIDICULOUSLY.
(I know I'm going to hell for thinking that smoking is just nnngh. But I can't help myself and I say this as someone whose dad's got lung cancer as we speak. I still love it. Though I'm not a smoker anymore -- maybe 2 or 3 a year -- some of the best sex of my life has involved cigarettes. In all kinds of permutations. That was more than you wanted to know.)
Anyway. I am totally torn between these two fannish loves who are duking it out in the arena of my mind. I'm not usually fannishly polyamourous. More of a serial monogamist. But here I am. Torn.
Spartacus fandom is, kinda, on the ground floor still... Which is always fun to get in on. However there is no novel-length fic as far as I can tell (yet), whereas of course Marvel is thriving. (And for me to really 100% fall for a fandom and not just the text itself, I need novel-length fic. Full on immersion, baby.) Conversely, new canon with Spartacus is happening right the fuck now -- EXCITING! -- whereas Marvel is happily waiting Avengers & Spidey, and so on, but the new!stuff isn't out yet. (And also, there's a lot of confusion as to what really IS canon, which I always find unsettling, because of comicsverse and cartoonverse and so on.) And then there's the fact that the relationships between the gladiators are just... really healthy. Which is, you know, kinda not my bag? To me, the most perfect love stories are ones where murder is, you know, always an option. And maybe the most intimate thing you can do to (or with) someone is destroy them...
(I've heard the first step is in admitting you have a problem...?)
So, you know... Loki/everyone.but.especially.Thor really works! That's where I started out, reading Thor, then segued into some straight up Avengers (nothing Tony Stark does is healthy!) and now am happily ensconced in X-Men First Class, which is, like, the PERFECT fandom for me. (I mean, first of all, what is this, people? I ask you.) And then there's Charles/Erik, which is, like, the platonic ideal of FoeYay. WHICH IS THE PERFECT THING, okay? God, I am so in love with them right now. Reading XMFC fic is like someone stroking a bruise perfectly and it is delicious and hurts and is AMAZING and doesn't stop, like ever, and my id is exploding in a world of squeegasm.
I do not think that this is compatible with the wonder that is Nasir and Agron. They are so nice to each other! They do not secretly hate/love each other. There is no universe in which they would kill each other for fun and lols. I am so out of clues as to how to write this? Let's remember that if I'm known for anything at all in fandom, it's for a love story that starts out with one of the parties killing the other during sex and goes downhill from there. And yet, LOOK AT THEIR FACES!!!! And the show itself is so brutal and deathsome and powerplay and OMG.
What do I do????
In conclusion, I am way too distracted from my dissertation. And I should probably do some work now.