random thing to do, i know.
well it has been a loong time since ive bleesed the non-existant live journal world with my words. People have left for myspace, but i just couldnt stay away. I was reading a lot of my old entries and it made me want to update again. Its fun to go back, half the time i have no idea what or who i was talking about. All those little secrets of mine i try to hint at, but now theyre even secret to me. Lately ive felt like something has been missing from my summer. Its relaxing yes, but ive been so bored. Sitting at home is more frustrating/stressful for me than anything else. I need some spontaneous adventure, or anything basically to occupy my time.
anyways ive been having these dreams lately and they have everyone and their freaking mom in them, only my relationships with certain people are much different...but in a good way. and now its kinda dissapointing that they were just dreams. and that will only make sense to....yeah nobody. but basically i know whats missing from my life, and i need to finally just say what needs to be said. no more holding back. You cant get what you want if you dont speak up. ive always known that, i just refused to take my own advice.
ok ill probably be back b.c i like talking to myself. peace.
anyways ive been having these dreams lately and they have everyone and their freaking mom in them, only my relationships with certain people are much different...but in a good way. and now its kinda dissapointing that they were just dreams. and that will only make sense to....yeah nobody. but basically i know whats missing from my life, and i need to finally just say what needs to be said. no more holding back. You cant get what you want if you dont speak up. ive always known that, i just refused to take my own advice.
ok ill probably be back b.c i like talking to myself. peace.