Superhero grief

[kalenp]

My sleep cycle has been somewhat out of whack lately, getting up early, trouble getting to sleep normally, and, somewhat unusually for me, remembering more of my dreams. This morning I had a dream where I was talking to somebody, and what they said reminded me of my friend Cameron (uberchops). I then had the striking image of him, dead, and remembered how we were superheros and best of companions and he had just recently died while still young and fit. When I thought of that, I couldn't take the pain of it anymore, I was so sad, and started crying, and apologized to whoever it was that I had been talking to. The sadness in the dream was so intense that I woke up and actually had real tears in my eyes.

I've never had a dream so intense before, except for random nightmares as a kid which would just spook me out of sleep. I wonder what's going on in my mind.