*,,,my heart is breakin in front of me...*
Lyrics
¤ and if i die, see you won't be so close to me. and i won't be the one who sticks around. if i'm awake, see you won't go to sleep, i promise and i won't be the one who lets you down.¤
¤ we shared our secrets in the dark, although we were only friends i dont know when the feelings changed inside my heart...¤
¤ ive been there once or twice before. destiny knocking at my door but destiny only seemed to rease the happiness once where the ruins replaced. and you said this world treated you cruel, played with your head, then played you the fool. leave it all behind, don't let it get you down if anything you can be a clown...¤
¤ push me out from the darkness to a sky that's colored blue somewhere someone's finding happiness while i'm still here so hung up on you¤
¤ nothing is real and i want you to know that i'm not alrite.when you tear open my chest,i'll try not to flinch.won't make promises.you taught me that.i'm still losing what's left of my self-esteem and i'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams¤
¤ the hardest things to say are the words that mean the most.so i'll bite my tongue til it bleeds and i doubt you'll even know.the easiest things to fake are feelings to fool someone else.and i've been tricked for so long by you that i spent these last few months in my own hell¤
¤ i hate myself for loving you like this. i hate myself for hating myself. just enough to love you¤
¤ and i don't care if you don't love me. and i don't care if you won't change. i could live inside these shadows that i cast on you if it meant that you would stay. and i'll be home before the morning comes, you won't have to be alone. i will write this down for you so you can read it. i will hold my breath for you till i can't feel it. you don't have to see me this way. cuz this way, i'm okay¤
¤ so much for all the promises you made, they served you well and now you're gone and they're wasted on me. so much for your endearing sense of charm. it served you well and now its gonna end and you're wasted on me.¤
¤ tell me where you are tonight. and is everything alrite? do you remember what i said while she's sleeping in your bed? tell me now you smile hard. cuz i don't smile much so far. and is she everything you need? is she everything i couldn't be? does she make everything match better? bring you all the shiny weather that you want.. and is she everything, everything i'm not?¤
¤ touch, lying on the floor, wishing this could last. but knowing that it can't and soon you will leave. and i will be on the floor watching the tv, trying hard to find a reason to move. i'm frozen in one place, staring at the screen listening to the rain falling on the street. some days go on too long. and no one can hang out tonight. here, where the carpet is cool and soft, underneath the clock i feel my weary heart is put to rest. you gather around your friends. the connection that you feel when the night has not yet died. you are new with a promise of a love you will probably never find and touch that you can really feel. the brokenness inside as hope and less collide. now nothing is real. you are new and near now to someone you used to love.¤
¤ and if i die, see you won't be so close to me. and i won't be the one who sticks around. if i'm awake, see you won't go to sleep, i promise and i won't be the one who lets you down.¤
¤ we shared our secrets in the dark, although we were only friends i dont know when the feelings changed inside my heart...¤
¤ ive been there once or twice before. destiny knocking at my door but destiny only seemed to rease the happiness once where the ruins replaced. and you said this world treated you cruel, played with your head, then played you the fool. leave it all behind, don't let it get you down if anything you can be a clown...¤
¤ push me out from the darkness to a sky that's colored blue somewhere someone's finding happiness while i'm still here so hung up on you¤
¤ nothing is real and i want you to know that i'm not alrite.when you tear open my chest,i'll try not to flinch.won't make promises.you taught me that.i'm still losing what's left of my self-esteem and i'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams¤
¤ the hardest things to say are the words that mean the most.so i'll bite my tongue til it bleeds and i doubt you'll even know.the easiest things to fake are feelings to fool someone else.and i've been tricked for so long by you that i spent these last few months in my own hell¤
¤ i hate myself for loving you like this. i hate myself for hating myself. just enough to love you¤
¤ and i don't care if you don't love me. and i don't care if you won't change. i could live inside these shadows that i cast on you if it meant that you would stay. and i'll be home before the morning comes, you won't have to be alone. i will write this down for you so you can read it. i will hold my breath for you till i can't feel it. you don't have to see me this way. cuz this way, i'm okay¤
¤ so much for all the promises you made, they served you well and now you're gone and they're wasted on me. so much for your endearing sense of charm. it served you well and now its gonna end and you're wasted on me.¤
¤ tell me where you are tonight. and is everything alrite? do you remember what i said while she's sleeping in your bed? tell me now you smile hard. cuz i don't smile much so far. and is she everything you need? is she everything i couldn't be? does she make everything match better? bring you all the shiny weather that you want.. and is she everything, everything i'm not?¤
¤ touch, lying on the floor, wishing this could last. but knowing that it can't and soon you will leave. and i will be on the floor watching the tv, trying hard to find a reason to move. i'm frozen in one place, staring at the screen listening to the rain falling on the street. some days go on too long. and no one can hang out tonight. here, where the carpet is cool and soft, underneath the clock i feel my weary heart is put to rest. you gather around your friends. the connection that you feel when the night has not yet died. you are new with a promise of a love you will probably never find and touch that you can really feel. the brokenness inside as hope and less collide. now nothing is real. you are new and near now to someone you used to love.¤