snapped
i have been feeling shitty about myself during the last couple of weeks. i felt that i had lost my willpower to do anything anymore.
thanks to two people who really love me (do they?), i snapped out of it. the tiger helped me do my economics take home test and he got me on a roll. if not for him, i would have probably fucked up this semester. tonight, i am going to try my best to do the other half by myself. i hope i do well. thank you, dear matt.
kelly, i just thank you for being unique. thank you for your encouragement and listening to my mumbo jumbo in the last couple of days.
as for amanda... lets just say... she doesn't have the right approach when it comes to me. she doesn't listen. i was all like "fuck it i'm gonna drop..." i was all depressed and what does she do? she gets mad and yells at me, tells me how immature i am, how sick in the head i am.
i know she cares, but not the right approach so i'm not thanking her for snapping me out of it BUT, i'm thanking her for being HER. i love her so much. she's just... MINE! :-D
so, i have some of my motivation back. things are not as bad as it seems. two days ago, my world was going to collapse. my schoolwork had not been done at all. i had a take home economics test and had 2 and a half weeks to do. it is due this tuesday. i had a demonstration speech to do in public speaking and had since january to figure out what the hell i was going to do. i have a 5 page anatomy and physicology homework i had to do but that is not due til wednesday. i have a late midterm in computer science, not one but TWO which is tuesday AND thursday. so, it was driving me nuts.
not to mention i have editor duties. john green will be out of town for the next three weeks so alot of it is on my shoulders. i have his burden for the next three weeks. i was told last friday that i will be making decisions... ALONE. so, that was alot for me to take. but after i calmed down on sunday, i realized... it's no big deal.
i promised myself i wouldnt' get this busy in college. i'm the laziest person alive. it is just HARD for me to adjust after 5 years of sitting on my fatass telling myself i'll get a bachelors degree *snaps fingers* just like that. lol. it's not as easy as i thought it would be BUT, it is manageable. i just need to find a niche, something where i can manage stuff like that very well. my day planner has been somewhat helpful but, again, i have to adjust. so i'm still in the process of learning how to change my ways on how to manage time and money.
speaking of money, i am extremely proud of myself. EVERYTHINGS PAID OFF FOR THIS MONTH! i did not skip ONE bill.
unfortunately, all that money i wanted for entertainment is gone. i used it on my cat when i had to take him to the vet, had to use the money for other things. BUT, i got the chance to go out to eat several times this month so it's all good!!!
so after a bound of depression, i'm back. i feel so much better. the weight from economics is halfway lifted from my shoulders. the demonstration speech is DONE! i'm not too worried about A and P as i can do that tuesday night or wednesday morning. as for computer science, i'm doing unbelievably well compared to the last three times i've taken the class!!! lol.
so, i'm going to try and hang in there. economics is just my biggest worry. as for the other classes, i'm confident i got B's. A's, doubtful :( but, there's always a chance. I have a low B in AP, 85 in computer science and approximately a 86 in public speaking. that is because of the absences i have. it is worth 5 points each day i miss class :-p i have 3 more absences left. lol. so it is very possible i will get A's in those three classes. as for economics, i'm vying for a C!!! i dont give a fuck what my VR counselor says. if i get a C, that means I EARNED IT and I WORKED hard for it. i'm not going to stress about getting a 3.0 this semester. but if i get A's in 3 of my classes and a C in one, i think my GPA would be a 3.5 but i cannot be sure. but if i get 2 A's and 1 B and 1 C, i dont know. lol. i think i'm calculating it wrong. thats' where matt comes in.
but if ANYBODY is interested in helping me and matt is unavailable, and you KNOW and UNDERSTAND economics, LET ME KNOW!!! i'm going to do it by myself but i will need somebody to look over it LOL.
thank you matt and kelly for making me feel better. means alot to me.
thanks to two people who really love me (do they?), i snapped out of it. the tiger helped me do my economics take home test and he got me on a roll. if not for him, i would have probably fucked up this semester. tonight, i am going to try my best to do the other half by myself. i hope i do well. thank you, dear matt.
kelly, i just thank you for being unique. thank you for your encouragement and listening to my mumbo jumbo in the last couple of days.
as for amanda... lets just say... she doesn't have the right approach when it comes to me. she doesn't listen. i was all like "fuck it i'm gonna drop..." i was all depressed and what does she do? she gets mad and yells at me, tells me how immature i am, how sick in the head i am.
i know she cares, but not the right approach so i'm not thanking her for snapping me out of it BUT, i'm thanking her for being HER. i love her so much. she's just... MINE! :-D
so, i have some of my motivation back. things are not as bad as it seems. two days ago, my world was going to collapse. my schoolwork had not been done at all. i had a take home economics test and had 2 and a half weeks to do. it is due this tuesday. i had a demonstration speech to do in public speaking and had since january to figure out what the hell i was going to do. i have a 5 page anatomy and physicology homework i had to do but that is not due til wednesday. i have a late midterm in computer science, not one but TWO which is tuesday AND thursday. so, it was driving me nuts.
not to mention i have editor duties. john green will be out of town for the next three weeks so alot of it is on my shoulders. i have his burden for the next three weeks. i was told last friday that i will be making decisions... ALONE. so, that was alot for me to take. but after i calmed down on sunday, i realized... it's no big deal.
i promised myself i wouldnt' get this busy in college. i'm the laziest person alive. it is just HARD for me to adjust after 5 years of sitting on my fatass telling myself i'll get a bachelors degree *snaps fingers* just like that. lol. it's not as easy as i thought it would be BUT, it is manageable. i just need to find a niche, something where i can manage stuff like that very well. my day planner has been somewhat helpful but, again, i have to adjust. so i'm still in the process of learning how to change my ways on how to manage time and money.
speaking of money, i am extremely proud of myself. EVERYTHINGS PAID OFF FOR THIS MONTH! i did not skip ONE bill.
unfortunately, all that money i wanted for entertainment is gone. i used it on my cat when i had to take him to the vet, had to use the money for other things. BUT, i got the chance to go out to eat several times this month so it's all good!!!
so after a bound of depression, i'm back. i feel so much better. the weight from economics is halfway lifted from my shoulders. the demonstration speech is DONE! i'm not too worried about A and P as i can do that tuesday night or wednesday morning. as for computer science, i'm doing unbelievably well compared to the last three times i've taken the class!!! lol.
so, i'm going to try and hang in there. economics is just my biggest worry. as for the other classes, i'm confident i got B's. A's, doubtful :( but, there's always a chance. I have a low B in AP, 85 in computer science and approximately a 86 in public speaking. that is because of the absences i have. it is worth 5 points each day i miss class :-p i have 3 more absences left. lol. so it is very possible i will get A's in those three classes. as for economics, i'm vying for a C!!! i dont give a fuck what my VR counselor says. if i get a C, that means I EARNED IT and I WORKED hard for it. i'm not going to stress about getting a 3.0 this semester. but if i get A's in 3 of my classes and a C in one, i think my GPA would be a 3.5 but i cannot be sure. but if i get 2 A's and 1 B and 1 C, i dont know. lol. i think i'm calculating it wrong. thats' where matt comes in.
but if ANYBODY is interested in helping me and matt is unavailable, and you KNOW and UNDERSTAND economics, LET ME KNOW!!! i'm going to do it by myself but i will need somebody to look over it LOL.
thank you matt and kelly for making me feel better. means alot to me.