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Awesome. So I'm pretty sick and tierd of a certain friend. I'm sure everyone I know is pretty sick of hearing me talk about him but my relationship used to be sooo important to me. I would drop anything for him. Suddenly though he's Mr BadAss Big Man on Campus and I can't even have a normal conversation with him. Whether it seems lame to anyone else or not he flat out lied to me for a year about being a virgin. Then I found out tonight that his FIRST time was a year ago. Whatever that means... It's really hard to let go of somthing that you had so much trust in, which i guess is why i need to let go and move on. This is totally teenage drama and probably totally out of proportion. However, this is the story of my f***ing life. Have i EVER had a relationship with ANYONE in the world that became REALLY important to me that didnt' fail misterably? every. single. one. of my best friends my entire life has ditched me. Even with Beth things were shaky for a long time and are FINALLY stable again. Is this the foreshadowing for my future husband and friends? Misery? It's not that relationships have ended in my life, I've been ditched. Jessica Holly was a year older than me and in 3rd grade she decided that she was too cool to be my best friend anymore so she pushed me off of the slide treehouse at a neighbors and got me all scraped up from the nails i hit as i fell down and hurt my ankle from falling. Her and her new " cool" best friend laughed at me as i walked home crying. I was in freaking 3rd grade. Then Mandy Lion decided 2 years later, my best friend then, that since i wasn't rich like her, then i didnt deserve to hang out with her. She told me too. " Allie Gortney: you're poor. When your parents will buy you things then we'll hang out." Awesome. That was 5th grade. Then Beth and I were best friends since 5th grade. As much as i lvoe beth, I most definitly got screwed way more than too many times over the years. Thank God that we finally get along great now. And now, the single most important person in my life makes fun of me because I don't party like an idiot with him and get trashed every dagum day. I don't give him a hard time so why should he do the same to me? Idk.. i'm just mad. If you have advice besides: It'll be ok or God will make it work out, then feel free to comment or whatever. Ok now i'm not mad anymore.... new plan: think of what I am doing to attract such negitive relationships.
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