cause we live like astronauts
new layout! it's kind of cute.
six flags saturday with katlyn and courtney was a ton of fun. I loved the wooden rollercoaster, and batman, and I totally got forced into going on the scream. I was terrified, but the view from the top at night is amazing. but I was still terrified. the entire time. we stopped on a rest stop on the way home and made friends with strangers.
lately I've been in an almost nonstop good mood. but every day that goes by I get more and more anxious about everything I'm going to miss. and I really didn't expect it. it came out of nowhere. I feel like I'm finally getting things together, I feel like I'm maybe actually where I want to be in a lot of different ways, but now I'm leaving.
and I've always had this habit...whenever I have an emotion I'm not comfortable with, I force it into something else. I rationalize it away and try to dull it out. I'm so sick of doing that. in the end it never really works and the whole effort is exhausting.
but I don't even know if that's something I can ever change. everyone has their defenses.
I'm dreading summer ending.
six flags saturday with katlyn and courtney was a ton of fun. I loved the wooden rollercoaster, and batman, and I totally got forced into going on the scream. I was terrified, but the view from the top at night is amazing. but I was still terrified. the entire time. we stopped on a rest stop on the way home and made friends with strangers.
lately I've been in an almost nonstop good mood. but every day that goes by I get more and more anxious about everything I'm going to miss. and I really didn't expect it. it came out of nowhere. I feel like I'm finally getting things together, I feel like I'm maybe actually where I want to be in a lot of different ways, but now I'm leaving.
and I've always had this habit...whenever I have an emotion I'm not comfortable with, I force it into something else. I rationalize it away and try to dull it out. I'm so sick of doing that. in the end it never really works and the whole effort is exhausting.
but I don't even know if that's something I can ever change. everyone has their defenses.
I'm dreading summer ending.