Jan 13, 2009 11:47
I have only ever been this happy once, before. This time there is no preset expiration. Even though you have your ideas of how life should be lived, the beauty of this life we are building together is undeniable. I can't even say everything I want to say because it would just come out a mountain of mushiness, and I'm sure everyone would lose their lunch. It is easy to think of one's own love as something spectacular and unimaginable to anyone else. This might be what I am doing. I don't care. No one has ever appreciated me in the way you do. People have looked at me in that way, for sure, with that sort of awe that makes me go red in the cheeks, but I have not desired to return such a sentiment for quite some time.
I think not saying it makes me say other, more useful things. I am afraid to use the words I have in my head, for fear of jinks and the like. But this is better than anything before. and it is climbing.
I don't know if you will come with me. I don't know if I will go with you. We might part and be lost but that is okay. This will remain.
We have it pretty good, don't we.