reality.

[kalanii]

the reality is setting in. my father and i, had the conversation the other day. what conversation? ... what if she doesnt make it? ...

im so lost, scared, confused. i had a dream last night that she passed away. the funeral came around , and i couldnt bring myself to go. that has happened before. i missed a few of them because i just couldnt bring myself to go. the ones i did go to i couldnt bring myself to cry, or even show emotion.

i will be back later to update and comment on all of your entries.