In an odd headspace
That my dad has passed away has finally sunk into my brain. I'm going to his memorial in San Diego next weekend. It's been over a month, but I still expect him to call me on the phone at some point. I haven't deleted his phone number yet. I just can't seem to do it. Sometimes I'm doing things that remind me of him and I smile. Sometimes I burst into tears. But mostly I text Makellan all day, and he keeps me going. =) I've been leaning on him a lot lately, but I think it's a good thing. (We are married now, after all ^_^.)
I've also been worried about my friends and family in San Diego with the fires that have been going on. I've heard from most of them, and I keep hoping that the rest are okay.
I just feel like everything is getting sort of jumbled together in my mind, and I can't really sort things out. I just keep rolling with it, without having time to process it. Maybe I'll have time at the end of Nov. (maybe) to take the time to sort through it all...
...and maybe, let the healing begin.
I've also been worried about my friends and family in San Diego with the fires that have been going on. I've heard from most of them, and I keep hoping that the rest are okay.
I just feel like everything is getting sort of jumbled together in my mind, and I can't really sort things out. I just keep rolling with it, without having time to process it. Maybe I'll have time at the end of Nov. (maybe) to take the time to sort through it all...
...and maybe, let the healing begin.