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My birthday is coming in july, and i cant think of anything i want that isnt too expensive. so i have decided o n something. I want hypnosis. to quit smoking.yah it sounds lame, but i need it, ive heard from alot of friends that it actually works. i cant quit any other way. And im so fucking sick of hearing people say "your young, u can quit easly" fuck that, it doesnt mater how fucking youn gu are, ur addicted! thats what its all about dumasses. especially my mom, she says that, and if its so fucking easy why hasnt she quit? yah fucking right. im sure it would be easier if no o ne in my house smoked. but all of them do, im never away from it. my mind is to weak anyways. i just really want to quit and ive tried so much, nothing works, i am depending on thie hypnosis. i really know it will work. everytime i pick up a ciggerette an dlight it, i feel controled,. its stupid how u can be controled by such a lil bitch. it makes me so depressed.but then it just makes me smoke more. i told jeff i was going to quit cus i love him. and i didnt quit. i feel so bad, but he should know why. i still love him but u know. i really thought i was going to quit. i guess i shouldnt open my mouth like that. until my bday i am going to try and try to quit. hopefully it will work so i dont have to waste a bday present on it. but im sure i will. im kinda glad becus i know it will work and i know, soon enough i will be over this nasty habit. i cant wait. it ruins everything,. i cant run i cant walk. lol. but ive always had bad lungs since i was born, so there wont be that much of a difference. but i do know they were alot better back then. i wish i didnt start at such an early age. people my age smoked their first ciggerette around 8, think of what the little kids are doing now. they are probably smoking at 6. and its true for some, ive seen it. ive seen kids smoke a cigg and actually inhale at 6 years of age and smoke thier first bowlat least at 7. its getting pethedic. soon they will be smoking right when they pop out of the vagoinas. wll im done. i am off to clean, to keep myself busy. peace. i love you non smokers and smokers.i feel for ya.in july i will let u know if the hypnosis worked and then u can do it.