Dear F-List,

[kalalanekent]

In case I don't tell you often enough, I do love you. And am grateful for every last one of you. There really are times in my life I don't know what I'd do without you guys. There are days that things seem so horrible and aggravating, like I just want to come home and throw something expensive and satisfyingly heavy at the wall, but then I come on here and here you are.

You. You are my family and have been for a long time. You always will be.

And I'm so very glad that I've been allowed to have that little window into your lives, small as it sometimes is.

I know that I don't get a chance to reply to personal entries as much as I used to, but know that I am reading and sometimes in places where I can't reply. I am there and I am with you. I'm especially thinking of you, elliania . I hate that I always seem to be late replying to your entries in the last little while. And birthdays! Oh God, the birthdays I keep missing! I think that's the thing that bothers me the worst. I don't even have an excuse other than burying myself in writing to keep from going nuts. All I can do is apologize and get my brain back in the right place.

I promise I'll get better at getting back with you guys. You're a big part of my world and I need to make sure you know that.

I do love you all.

Thank you for giving me somewhere to come home to.

*snugs you all as tight as I can*