never be the same
it was such a spur of the moment, a year and a half ago.
we were having are annual christmas get-together with my cousins
and that was when one of them asked me
"do you want a hamster?"
i remember looking at my parents with a face i rarely ever use.
a face i only put on when i really want something i'm not sure they'll let me have.
and they said yes.
i really wasn't ready.
i knew it would come someday,
and over the past few days, i should have known it would be soon.
but i really wasn't ready.
i'm still not ready.
i know i'm being dramatic.
but i really can't help it.
sitting where i am now, whenever i turn around, and see that empty spot where his cage used to be...it breaks my heart.
it happened last night.
i watched him spazz and twitch around..i didn't know what to do.
there was no way i could've found a vet anywhere nearby, and it was really late.
i cried for about an hour.
i tried to distract myself with tv..sitcoms..it kind of worked..
but when i got to bed it started again.
and..i'm still crying.
i'll get over this. i know i will, i have to.
we always do. :3
but you know, even though it was just a year and a half,
he'll never be "just a hamster" to me.
he was my room mate.
so for now, let me cry.
i promise i'll stop soon.
but give me this moment to miss him.
give me this moment to feel strongly about what we had.
i'll be happy again soon.
i might even get another pet someday.
but my room...
my room will never be the same.
goodnight, Snowball.
you will be missed.
i love you.
we were having are annual christmas get-together with my cousins
and that was when one of them asked me
"do you want a hamster?"
i remember looking at my parents with a face i rarely ever use.
a face i only put on when i really want something i'm not sure they'll let me have.
and they said yes.
i really wasn't ready.
i knew it would come someday,
and over the past few days, i should have known it would be soon.
but i really wasn't ready.
i'm still not ready.
i know i'm being dramatic.
but i really can't help it.
sitting where i am now, whenever i turn around, and see that empty spot where his cage used to be...it breaks my heart.
it happened last night.
i watched him spazz and twitch around..i didn't know what to do.
there was no way i could've found a vet anywhere nearby, and it was really late.
i cried for about an hour.
i tried to distract myself with tv..sitcoms..it kind of worked..
but when i got to bed it started again.
and..i'm still crying.
i'll get over this. i know i will, i have to.
we always do. :3
but you know, even though it was just a year and a half,
he'll never be "just a hamster" to me.
he was my room mate.
so for now, let me cry.
i promise i'll stop soon.
but give me this moment to miss him.
give me this moment to feel strongly about what we had.
i'll be happy again soon.
i might even get another pet someday.
but my room...
my room will never be the same.
goodnight, Snowball.
you will be missed.
i love you.