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[kal_el_clark]

I hadn't seen much of anyone but Shannon since coming to LA. Sure I saw Harry briefly after he came back from New York but between all the things going on in his life and his work he's mostly been gone. I liked Shannon, even if half the time she did make me feel incredibly awkward and terribly farm boy for some reason. But she was easy to be

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[kal_el_clark]

I'd forgotten it was almost sunrise, and that it made a difference. I would have to start remembering that someday. I wondered what was behind his own eyes when he was looking at me like that.

"I just got up actually, it's 2 hours later in Smallville and my internal clock is kind of set to get up and do chores." I wanted to stay in bed late my whole life and when I can I don't. It felt like I could feel the sun rising back home and it just drove me out of bed.

[ny_city_boy]

That was all I needed to hear to turn and walk into the penthouse knowing that he would follow me. No clue if Shannon was in my room or her private room, but I decided not to chance it. Instead I went into his room and held the door open for him.

Once he was inside I closed it and locked it. Even though I didn't think Darla or Shannon would disturb us.

"I don't sleep anymore," I told him honestly. "They have me on the performance enhancers again. Don't worry, I don't plan to bleed around you. But they can't hurt me anymore and well they make sleep kind of impossible."

I kicked off my shoes and flopped down on his bed, watching him as he took in the information. "Sophia is on them too. They're trying to perfect the drug here. Make it so it can't kill people so who better to try it out on than vampires?"

[kal_el_clark]

What the hell? I could feel the anger start up, no wonder the both of them were so strong.

"It's not any better to turn you two into guinea pigs!" they couldn't know that anything that worked on vampires would on humans without killing them. It would be like saying hey this didn't kill a horse so it's safe for a parakeet. "How can you be so matter of fact about this Harry?" And I knew Lex was involved in this and it just brought back all that happened to kill our friendship last time. I had to throttle down the impulse to just go over and demand answers from him.

[ny_city_boy]

"Because the drug can be fixed. It can't hurt either of us, and there is an antidote anyway. It's science, Clark. I feel more comfortable having a say in my father's drugs than letting the firm do whatever they want with it and I have no influence."

I shrugged when he looked angry. It was one of the least dangerous projects that the firm had going on. Yeah, he was innocent alright.

"It was my father's life work. It's what he sold me out to this firm for. If it cost me this? I want to be sure it's fixed properly. Otherwise what the fuck did I even die for?"

[kal_el_clark]

"But no one knows that it can be fixed really do they? They just hope if they use it on enough people that they will make it work." At least there was an antidote this time, no more people had to go like Harry did the first time.

I don't like it because what the hell am I supposed to say to his argument? He died because of this and his father what do I have that makes any difference beside that? But it still makes me angry and I clench my teeth and remind myself its been a long time since I've knocked holes in walls because I was pissed off.

"It doesn't make it right. But I don't have the right to tell you how to do any of this."

[ny_city_boy]

"Clark, come here," I told him and patted the free side of the bed. He gave me a look so I broke out the puppy eyes. Low blow, sure, but use them if you got them.

Once he was sitting on the bed, I tugged him closer and kissed him. Because really I got why he was irritated, but he had to accept it was better this way. At least there was an antidote and if it could be perfected? Then hey, it was a good drug to have.

"A lot of things aren't right, but I'm trying to make this as right as it can be. Trust me to keep this on the level. I'm not going to sit back and let anyone go through what I did." I rested my hand on his thigh and gripped it as I kissed him again. He really needed to relax.

[kal_el_clark]

That look was entirely no fair and I suddenly understood why Chloe and everyone would sigh, roll their eyes and just stop arguing at me.

Some of the anger leaked out when he kissed me, I'd be surprised if it didn't. But the tension was still there and I knew it was driving Harry nuts that I was so uptight.

"I do trust you, and I trust Lex. It's just hard Harry, I've been here before and I trusted people. It didn't end well and Lex and I were at each other's throats afterwards." I took a deep breath and put my hand on the back of his neck concentrating on the feel of the muscles moving underneath the skin and the texture of his hair.

"People have wanted to make me their science project Harry, I don't like it to happen to others."

[ny_city_boy]

"I agreed to it. So did Sophia. No one is on the project who hasn't agreed to it, Clark," I promised him as I relaxed just a bit under his touch. Really, he was so wound up.

We'd never gone further than this and I wanted too. Despite the small voice inside my head reminding me about Faith and Angel. Well. I told Faith I would go back to being faithful if she took me back. Until that happened I was still a free agent.

"Just relax, Clark," I said in a soft tone as my hands moved under his shirt to brush across the warm skin there. He was a little warmer than regular people were. At least he felt that way to me. "Do you want me to stop?" I asked him because well he didn't have experience with guys and kissing was one thing, but it was pretty clear I was starting to move past kissing. I wasn't about to push him into something he wasn't ready for.

[kal_el_clark]

Did I want him to stop? His hands were cool against my skin under my shirt. I had wanted to do more than this with Harry once upon a time before we all ended up getting stranded on an island and ending up in different places. So one answer was, no I didn't want him to stop

[ny_city_boy]

I watched him closely as he did the internal struggle. This was a huge thing for him. I'd be his first guy. I was still trying to figure out if he was a natural top or bottom, but I was pretty sure it was the latter. How amazing that he was so strong naturally, but deep down he wanted someone else to take control