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Its really hard to go back when you have crossed the line. I don't want to make the same mistakes over and over. I want to learn from them and screw my head back on straight.
These past few days have been from a horrible dream. You think you know your best friend, you think everything is okay- not great, but okay. The next thing you know, you're calling 911 because they overdosed. If I had just been there sooner. If I had known what was happening. If she just wouldn't have told me that she was fine. If she had taken a chance and talked about things, this never would've happened. Never again do I want to talk to a police officer or sit in a hospital wondering if one of my closest friends died. I'm glad I was there to help, but it just hurts so much to see how much she was hurting. And I just want to take that pain away. But how much can I do? Please send your prayers
These past few days have been from a horrible dream. You think you know your best friend, you think everything is okay- not great, but okay. The next thing you know, you're calling 911 because they overdosed. If I had just been there sooner. If I had known what was happening. If she just wouldn't have told me that she was fine. If she had taken a chance and talked about things, this never would've happened. Never again do I want to talk to a police officer or sit in a hospital wondering if one of my closest friends died. I'm glad I was there to help, but it just hurts so much to see how much she was hurting. And I just want to take that pain away. But how much can I do? Please send your prayers