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my second sister angela is now pregnant. she's been waiting for this day for as long as i can remember. im going to be an aunty, again. this makes two outta three, im next in the family, but no baby is popping out of me until my early 30's. im more then excited and full of happiness for my sister and im glad she has a man that i know will stick around and keep her happy, but there is only one thing im scared of. she's been going through alot of trouble with money and not being able to pay off certain bills, car insurance an so much more. shes working two jobs and still not making enough. ontop of all this, she just bought an apartment and i dont know how shes going to be able to take care of all this, and now a baby. it scares me, because i dont want to see my sister going down the drain or being wrapped up into something that she doesnt deserve. i know she can make it through, she usually does. everyone in my family usually makes it by, because were just too strong of a family. im wishing her the best and i will do my best to help her out in any way i can. i wont let anything happen to her, or the baby.
i keep over thinking everything, and its really starting to get to me. i cant wait to get out of this place and go to england and be with my bestfriend, thats what i need more then anything. i cant wait to go to school @ Merrimack and fullfill my goal of becoming a phsycologist and helping all sorts of people out with their problems. it's actually kind of weird because, im the type of person to hold everything in and not let anyone know whats going on inside my head an just keep my problems to myself, but then again i want everyone to come to me for help and tell me whats going on in their head. i cant wait to make this happen and go on with my life.
on a good note, i got a second job. i'm still working at carvel/cinnabon and now hollister. just going to be doing this either 3 or 4 nights a week, just for some extra money and to get discounts on their clothes. i hope this turns out good and doesnt bit me in the ass.