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no matter how hard i try, it just doesnt seem to work, or matter. it seems that i just keep moving down the list and it feels that im almost at the bottom. i hate worrying and thinking from time to time and i dont want to do it anymore. things arent what they used to be between us, and i hate it more then anything. at times, its like im the only that cares and i dont know what to do about it anymore. this is your last month here, and i havent seen you in almost 3 weeks now. yes i know you have alot on your plate, but i think i should at least matter in your life and should actually get asked to be seen. you asked me to hang out, and that was once out of 3 weeks, and that doesnt make me feel good. im not writting this to make you upset, sad, or anything like that, im just letting you know how i feel about this situation. its my lj, im supposed to write how i feel, just like you do. i dont know what you want me to do anymore, i dont know what you want me to think. your time here is flying by so unbelievably too fast and i think about it everyday. you know i love you, you know i need you more then anything, so please, can we fix this?