Who are we mistaking?
So I've had this page open for a few days now because I've wanted to write something that is worth reading in the future (as I usually do) but in reality, i don't have anything to say.
I mean, I'm happy, I have a lovely girlfriend, I have a roof over my head and I share it with my best friend but there's still those glitches in my life that occur and always effect the people I'm close with but for some reason i feel like they don't effect me. I don't feel anything. I mean, i'm feeling emotions and I'm constantly looking out for the people that are in my life the most but recently I've been more so to say "normal" in what has happened and I'm not really taking the fact that people around me are hurting. I know they're hurting. I know exactly what they're going through. So why can't I give any advice? Why can't I say something reassuring like "everything's going to be alright"? Is it because I know that it's not? Am I right or am I just over analysing my surroundings? the likeliness of something to actually go the way you want it to is like a million to one.
...I think the only real emotion that is coming out a lot more is anger. Maybe I'm angry because I'm not grieving with my friends. Maybe I'm angry at the fact that I have no idea how to take hold of my emotions. Or maybe I'm just confused or stressed about several things in my life that the only emotion that suits my stress level is anger. hmm. Turns out I did have something to say.
I'm not anxious, I'm angry. But Why.
What is this feeling?
I mean, I'm happy, I have a lovely girlfriend, I have a roof over my head and I share it with my best friend but there's still those glitches in my life that occur and always effect the people I'm close with but for some reason i feel like they don't effect me. I don't feel anything. I mean, i'm feeling emotions and I'm constantly looking out for the people that are in my life the most but recently I've been more so to say "normal" in what has happened and I'm not really taking the fact that people around me are hurting. I know they're hurting. I know exactly what they're going through. So why can't I give any advice? Why can't I say something reassuring like "everything's going to be alright"? Is it because I know that it's not? Am I right or am I just over analysing my surroundings? the likeliness of something to actually go the way you want it to is like a million to one.
...I think the only real emotion that is coming out a lot more is anger. Maybe I'm angry because I'm not grieving with my friends. Maybe I'm angry at the fact that I have no idea how to take hold of my emotions. Or maybe I'm just confused or stressed about several things in my life that the only emotion that suits my stress level is anger. hmm. Turns out I did have something to say.
I'm not anxious, I'm angry. But Why.
What is this feeling?