Forgive, but never forget...
Tends to be something I carry around with myself these days. I had a bad habit of lying for majority of my life but last year I changed my ways and stopped lying all together. But not lying has led me to somehow still fuck my relationships up. I figure if you can’t lie then why say anything at all? But then again not saying anything still comes back to lying because I’m not giving all the information.
So then I get called ‘dishonest’.
Now this is a word I have not heard in my life and hearing it from your best friend… hmm, kinda hurts. And sucks. I don’t get how by telling someone how much I don’t want to hurt them by protecting them and not getting them involved still manages to hurt them.
Fuck.
So typically, as the stubborn person I am, I want to fix things straight away. But then that always gets me in deeper shit then before.
So leaving them alone and “giving them space” is the only thing I can do now. Which is kind of hard when you live with them but in reality, the ball is in her park.
I actually, genuinely feel really bad for all the people I’ve forced this upon in the past. Be it old roommates, old relationships, and even best friends. I could not be any sorrier for it and I wish I took a better approch before hand. But I believe that best friends are a little different, there’s a different connection between each other than the other relationships with people and that’s why it works. So what about a best friend that you live with?
So then I get called ‘dishonest’.
Now this is a word I have not heard in my life and hearing it from your best friend… hmm, kinda hurts. And sucks. I don’t get how by telling someone how much I don’t want to hurt them by protecting them and not getting them involved still manages to hurt them.
Fuck.
So typically, as the stubborn person I am, I want to fix things straight away. But then that always gets me in deeper shit then before.
So leaving them alone and “giving them space” is the only thing I can do now. Which is kind of hard when you live with them but in reality, the ball is in her park.
I actually, genuinely feel really bad for all the people I’ve forced this upon in the past. Be it old roommates, old relationships, and even best friends. I could not be any sorrier for it and I wish I took a better approch before hand. But I believe that best friends are a little different, there’s a different connection between each other than the other relationships with people and that’s why it works. So what about a best friend that you live with?