maybe i am just disheartened...
somehow, after reading about this today, i got to thinking...
i am not here to comment on the incident that happened, but rather, i was reading all the different major news outlets, and specifically reading people's reaction to the incident on the discussion boards. and for the first time, the ignorance and just the plain asshole-ish attitude of some people just really pissed me off. and for the first time, i think my liberal slant is interfering with my scientific life. this is a strange feeling... maybe i am just disappointed... or maybe this is the beginning of the awakening from my youthful idealism.
after reading all those posts today, i was walking to class... and during the walk, i was just really disturbed. it wasn't just about those posts anymore... i just kind of lost faith in humanity, i guess i just got really disappointed with a lot of people out there. although this might sound fastidious, but part of the reason that i became a grad student and plan to spend my life in research is because i want to do things that will improve the world, improve the life of mankind. but today, i started to think... if making this sacrifice on my part means saving mostly assholes and ignorant fucks, i am not really sure if it's worth it anymore.
and the more i think about it, the more i get frustrated by a lot of the negative perception and attitudes about science out there. it just seems to me so many people out there have this entitlement attitude. people expect changes in life, improvements in technologies, advances in medical fields to make life more enjoyable, to eliminate diseases and to elongate lives. but at the same time, so many of the same people are the one that are scared about the freedom and the creativity scientists hold, and they are the ones who support the types of rules and regulations that would highly restrict the development of science. even worse, some people turn against the very science that allow mankind to have the comfort we have today, condemning advances based on some ideological or illogical fear. i am starting to feel that maybe it's not even worth the fight anymore... maybe i should just become an ibanker and make a shitload of money for myself and call it a life.
someone please tell me this is not true. someone please tell me this is just me being extremely negative. because i no longer know for sure... what is the use of this dream? what is the use of this idealism?
i am not here to comment on the incident that happened, but rather, i was reading all the different major news outlets, and specifically reading people's reaction to the incident on the discussion boards. and for the first time, the ignorance and just the plain asshole-ish attitude of some people just really pissed me off. and for the first time, i think my liberal slant is interfering with my scientific life. this is a strange feeling... maybe i am just disappointed... or maybe this is the beginning of the awakening from my youthful idealism.
after reading all those posts today, i was walking to class... and during the walk, i was just really disturbed. it wasn't just about those posts anymore... i just kind of lost faith in humanity, i guess i just got really disappointed with a lot of people out there. although this might sound fastidious, but part of the reason that i became a grad student and plan to spend my life in research is because i want to do things that will improve the world, improve the life of mankind. but today, i started to think... if making this sacrifice on my part means saving mostly assholes and ignorant fucks, i am not really sure if it's worth it anymore.
and the more i think about it, the more i get frustrated by a lot of the negative perception and attitudes about science out there. it just seems to me so many people out there have this entitlement attitude. people expect changes in life, improvements in technologies, advances in medical fields to make life more enjoyable, to eliminate diseases and to elongate lives. but at the same time, so many of the same people are the one that are scared about the freedom and the creativity scientists hold, and they are the ones who support the types of rules and regulations that would highly restrict the development of science. even worse, some people turn against the very science that allow mankind to have the comfort we have today, condemning advances based on some ideological or illogical fear. i am starting to feel that maybe it's not even worth the fight anymore... maybe i should just become an ibanker and make a shitload of money for myself and call it a life.
someone please tell me this is not true. someone please tell me this is just me being extremely negative. because i no longer know for sure... what is the use of this dream? what is the use of this idealism?