everything will be wonderful someday...

[kajak]

???

im hoping everything will get better..i know it will but all day today i just felt dragged down...
i cried three times today from stress and its still early yet...
i can barely even eat anything because i have so much anxiety i feel nautious all the time...
exhaustion, stress, too much to do, no time to do it, need to relax, spend every moment doing work...
its all building up...its fall break...which i have no time for a break...

ive made it so far...the semester is halfway done....but it just gets harder and harder every day....
i need some motivation...

and stress just gets worse when thinking about the future and how close it is...
yikes...

its hard to buckle down and get things done when everyone around you is out having fun...
(no rhyme intentional)

im just gonna keep trying to take deep breaths...

ap