its a very very mad world...

[kajak]

i think im getting a cold, my head is pounding...
i feel like crap, mentally and physically...
im very emotional, the moments this weekend when i was happiest i started crying and i dont know why...
im getting old...
ive lived for 20 years and feel like there is still soo much to do and i havent done anything with my life yet...
i went to church this morning, it usually makes me feel good about myself but today it just made me feel like i wasnt a good enough person...
the world is just spiralling out of control..
i wish i had the power to create world peace...

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me.