Nov 07, 2008 00:45
Ok....the conclusion is drawing slowly closer. I am slightly inebriated which makes saying this that much easier. I have been on this kick for a while now. She came by and hung out with me, chase, and the burl for a while. Damn she is so cute...I guess I am weird. We are going to spend the whole day out Friday and part of Saturday. I have to help her move. DAMN YOU MID-BOSS!!!! I must say I am slightly amped. I haven't felt this way about things in a while. It just got interesting. By the way, you guys should try this drink called JOOSE. It has like nine percent alky and great tasting. Perhaps it's time for me to stop being a knucklehead and just be honest. She is putting forth alot of effort. She came straight over here when I called her and everything. I can't say alot of women would be willing to do that. She had to go home because she worked all day, but came by to see me. Damn!!!! We going to hang out like all day tomorrow. What the hell is wrong with me man?? I want to be happy I really do, but part of me wonders if she can really handle the task. Can she really tame the savage beast? I am a very rough and tumble kind of guy. I will be the love of your life one minute then a complete stranger the next. I don't do this on purpose, but at the end of the day I just like things to be free. We have both established it. We are both too stubborn to admit it. I have been experiencing a grand sense of warm fuzzies since she came back into the world o monkey. We have always had this connection ya know?
I am far from in love, but yet...still intrigued. Why would a woman try so hard to make her existence known. Am I really that hard to read....to hold still....to conquer? Yeah..I know..she has baggage, but at the end of the day name someone our age who doesn't. This fucker is racking up points and I don't like it. I want to be cynical and impractical, but I can't help but want to handle this like a grown up. I feel like going to a club tomorrow night. FUCK ATLANTA UP YO!!! Why not...I will just go ahead and admit it to her and get it over with..damn myself to a year or so of happiness then a horrible denouement.....cynicism again I can feel it LOL!!! Peace out peoples.....this monkey has a long road ahead.