i should make a song called "hey dude" based off the beatles hit single
It's that special time of day for me to spill useless garbage into the interwebs. It doesn't directly impact anyone's lives. Hence the reason why I say it's rather useless.It's amazing how much control the human mind has over other bodily functions. The anger brought to the light from my previous post is still there. I feel that it may be possible if someone got the gumption to stab me in the chest with a iron spike, that a 30 mile radius of our environment would be caught in a torrential maelstrom on par with Nagasaki. The only thing that's keeping it at bay is my natural sensibility. If I had my little brother's sentiment toward issues, I would have exploded long ago.Alas...i suppose it does have a poetic symmetry to it. I have always been known by some as the guy "with the black cloud over his head". In some ways, I can sympathize and understand that logic. My life has always been about balances. In order for me to get a new job, I have to make a two week sacrifice of no food or money. In order for me to get money, I have to do some crazy and unfathomable activity to get it done. If I want to go out on a date, it has to be within an odd realm of understanding making it pointless to even go in the first place. YOu see my sad little point. I could never seem to be an upper-middle class male, with a wife and two kids, a nice four bedroom house, well paying job, and be an established figure in the community. We all know that things come with a cost. Not to be selfish, but what more must I do to pay the piper. That fucker has been holding on to the flute for too damn long and I want to toot my own damn instrument.
We as humans, in essence, push forward because that's all we really got. Regression is usually followed by fear and anxiety. I, for one, feel that if I am to have anything, that I must accept the pain and hardship that come with it. Nothing is easy...I know, but for once I just want the feeling of satisfaction without the precursors of pain and misfortune. Perhaps bitterness and cynicism have finally gripped my soul like my mother foretold me once, but I will fight as I always do. Monkeys can't have money.....bananas are better. No point in having a car..MARTA is right around the corner. Love is useless because it makes you scared of what's next. Why have a girlfriend when you can have them all. This doesn't mean that I am renouncing the part of my soul that is still optimistic. I just want to understand WHY for every action there has to be a reaction. WHy can't the world just stand in stasis while we incite chaos for free? For that reason....this demon in my chest will not rest until I get the answers that I need.
We as humans, in essence, push forward because that's all we really got. Regression is usually followed by fear and anxiety. I, for one, feel that if I am to have anything, that I must accept the pain and hardship that come with it. Nothing is easy...I know, but for once I just want the feeling of satisfaction without the precursors of pain and misfortune. Perhaps bitterness and cynicism have finally gripped my soul like my mother foretold me once, but I will fight as I always do. Monkeys can't have money.....bananas are better. No point in having a car..MARTA is right around the corner. Love is useless because it makes you scared of what's next. Why have a girlfriend when you can have them all. This doesn't mean that I am renouncing the part of my soul that is still optimistic. I just want to understand WHY for every action there has to be a reaction. WHy can't the world just stand in stasis while we incite chaos for free? For that reason....this demon in my chest will not rest until I get the answers that I need.