My last entry as kaitlyn_smith
I haven't been posting much lately... probably because it doesn't quite feel right posting here, as kaitlyn_smith anymore... The turn of August/September was a stepping stone.. a big one. Figuring out what I want to do with my life, telling my Mom everything I needed her to hear... I am not a "smith" anymore, I am no longer unsure of my identity, no longer unable to put a name to what I am. When I first created this account a bajillion years ago, I spent days DAYS trying to come up with a user name. I defaulted to the only highschool nickname I ever had (or that I ever knew about at least). But I'm not that person anymore. I know that now. No longer being held down by expectation, by an overwhelming sense of guilt... It's freeing, but also terribly disconcerting. I feel a little like poor little Ophelia, with all her men that told her what to do all disappearing at once. well... I feel like Ophelia minus the crazy and the suicidal tendencies... SO I bring you, http://ophelia-feigns.livejournal.com/ Add it, if you wish. I'm not going to be writing here anymore.
I don't think I'm going to off this journal right away... keep it around as a source of documentation of the past... five? six years? oh boy... with that... adieu.
I don't think I'm going to off this journal right away... keep it around as a source of documentation of the past... five? six years? oh boy... with that... adieu.