ill miss you so good
hey, you. please come home. i miss you so much! theres so many things i need to tell you, and i need you to understand me and talk to me and tell me whats wrong with me. i need you to keep me in line, and i need your advice on so much. i need you to listen to me...in the way that only you can. i need you to make me feel better, cause youre the only one whos gonna understand what im going through right now. i need you here, and soon. im falling away without my accountability partner who also happens to be my ex boyfriend and current best friend. hurry home and be safe. im praying for you every day and hope God is changing your heart. i love you!!
so i want a boy. but im tired of finding all these guys who dont fit the mold that i have cut out. i want someone who challenges me spiritually, first and foremost. this is the hardest standard to find for me. i want a guy who will only kiss me, and nothing more, cause he respects the fact that im only my future husband's, no matter what either one of us want to do. i want a brunette with pretty blue eyes. i want a guy who will not get jealous, or angry easily. i want a guy i can trust, and who can trust me. someone who plays the guitar. someone who totally understands me..in a way that only one person has ever done before. someone who loves me for me, no matter how much of a basketcase i am at the time, or what i look like, or what i wear. i want someone who gives me that excited feeling every time i talk to him or see him or even think about him. i want someone who will say i love you, and mean it.
this is gonna be one hard boy to get, so im gonna wait on Gods timing. He'll put this boy in my life when the timings right. the hard part is the wait. and...something else.
ha weird mood..im a hopeless romantic tonight. sorry for the corneyness. i love you all.