(Untitled)
So, I found out who made a comment on my LiveJournal way back in August about Julian. And the same person was the one who kept making annonymous comments on other entries. I also found out that this person talks shit about me.. calls me a slut rather often. SKANK-WHORE is another word they used to describe my best friend and I that I also found out
( Read more... )
First and foremost, I want to tell you that I am truely sorry for being a bitch and acting like I have been, saying and doing things I shouldn't. I know you probably won't accept my apology and will still think what you think of me now, but I know this isn't how Julian would want me to be acting, especially to one of his good friends. I know there isn't anything I can say to make up for all this shit I have caused but I have been going through a lot lately - still - and I have been taking it out on everyone else and saying mean things and doing things I shouldn't be. When Julian's parents came through Winn*Dixie tonight, tears just filled my eyes, because I could see the hurt in their eyes as they looked at me and tried their hardest to have a conversation with me after all that has happend. I know Julian is looking down on us, especially me, and isn't pleased with how I am treating you, and others. I know there isn't any excuses or anything I can say to make up for all this, but it takes a lot for me to get out of bed every morning and put a smile on my face. Seeing one of your good friends die at the age of 16 isn't too easy to overcome and all this anger and hatred as to why God would take away someone everyone loved and looked forward to seeing everyday has been being expressed on everyone else, including you. It's been hard to lose a good friend, while drifting away from my best friend and winding up losing them both. I know we are both going through the same thing: the loss of a good friend. Although I know this will not make up for anything, I am very truely sorry and I won't ever say anything about you, your best friend, or anything ever again. I understand if you still think I am a bitch, or anything else, even a skank whore because I probably am. But that's your opinion and I'm just here to apology. Once again, I'm sorry.
-Heather Haskill
Reply
Leave a comment