i cant forget & i cant let it go cuz time changes and love changes and best friends become strangers
so my birthday was extra boring. i got a prensent from shauna and my brothers gf. and a couple cards from family members. thats just about it .. i sat around my house. yeah so much funnn.
at lunch today .. i cried and some of english bc my friends are allllll fucking assholes. and i hate them all .. they say thier my "best friend" and i believe them and then they fucking stab me in the back. they like do all this stuff together and leave me out and i have nothing to do. i lost 2 best friends this year and 1 meant a reallll lot to me but i guess i didnt mean much to her? i guess thats cool how i think of all my friends soo highly and treat them soo good and everything and they all treat me like shit. its awesome. even my mom knows it .. but i try to not let it get to me but i cant help it .. when it hurts soo bad that i lost such a big part of my life .. maybe im over dramatic but it just hurts when all ur friends are like making plans right in front of you and leave u out .. and they have all these inside jokes and idk .. im a baby but i dont care .. that stuff really gets to me. well im gunna go take a nap since i have nothing else to do .............................