as holiday seasons near and approach
The holidays are coming around the corner. And I am full of emotions. Happy, sad, angry, reflective.
I am happy because I am blessed for the loved ones in my life - they make me who I am, help me be a better person.
Family and friends are my heart, spirit, and soul. From day one, they have supported me and my dreams.
And I love them dearly.
This includes my livejournal family and friends - those who make me smile and rejoice for the wonderful angels they are.
Next, there is a sense of sadness. Wistful and thinking of memories past. I miss my Grandma Wanda. Her birthday is coming in December, near mine. I can't call her, say I love her, send her gifts that are themes of Elvis Presley, Prince, and Glenn Ford, and Paul Young. No longer can I hear her rich laughter, the stories of past, gossip with her about "soapies" and Dancing With the Stars. I miss her so much. She was beautifully Wanda, a unique individual, with a heart the size of a million states of Texas. You are loved very much so, GiGi.
I'm angry, furious even. Cancer took away GiGi. Her husband also died of cancer, both fighting bravely and with courage. I pray that there is a cure for cancer someday. Cancer touches so many lives in a negative way. Yet it has the strange power of bringing family and friends closer.
I'm angry, pissed even, about a certain few people in my life. I do for them, give my best, wishing and wanting their happiness. Once in a while, I ask for a small favor (nothing like physical items and doings, more like emotional favors) and they tell me "I'm too busy. Sorry." or I never hear from them, being ignored and slighed. It hurts, it really does. It gets my trust issues changed, making me wary of letting my guard down.
I am reflective - thinking of memories past, present snapshots, and future keepsakes. My mind and heart keeps these close, cherishing and treasuring these special events and blessings.
Fyi, comments are screened. :-)
I am happy because I am blessed for the loved ones in my life - they make me who I am, help me be a better person.
Family and friends are my heart, spirit, and soul. From day one, they have supported me and my dreams.
And I love them dearly.
This includes my livejournal family and friends - those who make me smile and rejoice for the wonderful angels they are.
Next, there is a sense of sadness. Wistful and thinking of memories past. I miss my Grandma Wanda. Her birthday is coming in December, near mine. I can't call her, say I love her, send her gifts that are themes of Elvis Presley, Prince, and Glenn Ford, and Paul Young. No longer can I hear her rich laughter, the stories of past, gossip with her about "soapies" and Dancing With the Stars. I miss her so much. She was beautifully Wanda, a unique individual, with a heart the size of a million states of Texas. You are loved very much so, GiGi.
I'm angry, furious even. Cancer took away GiGi. Her husband also died of cancer, both fighting bravely and with courage. I pray that there is a cure for cancer someday. Cancer touches so many lives in a negative way. Yet it has the strange power of bringing family and friends closer.
I'm angry, pissed even, about a certain few people in my life. I do for them, give my best, wishing and wanting their happiness. Once in a while, I ask for a small favor (nothing like physical items and doings, more like emotional favors) and they tell me "I'm too busy. Sorry." or I never hear from them, being ignored and slighed. It hurts, it really does. It gets my trust issues changed, making me wary of letting my guard down.
I am reflective - thinking of memories past, present snapshots, and future keepsakes. My mind and heart keeps these close, cherishing and treasuring these special events and blessings.
Fyi, comments are screened. :-)