(for saemriel) heat
❊ for: saemriel
❊ title: heat
❊ pairings: kai/d.o, slight!sehun/kai
❊ rating: nc17
❊ warnings: knotting, top!soo, dubcon/noncon
❊ word count: 7,676
❊ summary: Jongin wanted to live new life away from his past, and found a new start in the city of Seoul. After the full moon started his heat, he found himself in a compromising situation where his instincts were to be tested and challenged like never before.
❊ a/n: I wish I had more time, but still, thank you to the kind mods who were very considerate and approachable. Thank you for giving me a shot at this though I feel like I failed miserably in writing an above-standard fic for this exchange. Still, it was fun! I’ll be signing up early next year! More power!
God knows how long I had to put up with it. I’ve always wanted a fresh start - a new life, a rebirth with a different name, a different bloodline, a different pack. I wanted a clean slate; my history vanished for my and everyone else’s memories. For years, I’ve lived simply under the authority of my father, an Alpha, behind the shadow of my twin brother, Kai. When my father was killed by another Alpha, our pack was scattered across the land, and I found myself the freedom I’ve always wanted.
“Good morning, Jongin.” The building’s security opened the door of my black Bentley. I stepped inside the vehicle, greeted also by my driver who was wearing far fancier clothes than the sweats I’m wearing today.
“Where are we headed?” Chanyeol asked. I actually left the penthouse about three hours earlier than usual, wanting a few hours for myself at the studio I’ve been teaching in for the past six months.
“The studio, Chan.” I replied. He nodded adn drove off almost immediately.
“Of course.”
I watched the road as we passed by rows of commercial buildings. Seoul was beautiful in every way. When I came here a year ago, I knew I can live here the life I’ve wanted. From the mountains of Bucheon, I moved to Seoul with my share of inheritance. I vowed over my father’s grave that I’ll live in accordance to his will that I’ll never be like my twin who might have wreaked havoc now wherever he could be. We were born wolves after all, and violence was a part of who we are, especially during a full moon. Living in the city made it harder for me to adjust, but it’s a risk I was willing to take.
Despite the riches my father left, I hid the extravagance from everyone I was acquainted to and lived a simple life. My penthouse in Gangnam was a dead giveaway to it though, but no was close enough anyway to pry on my life, except for my driver and confidant, Park Chanyeol. His family has been serving ours for generations, and I’ll always be grateful that even after what happened to our pack, he stuck with me even in the city. He was free from the code of serving my family when ours broke apart, but he stayed anyway. He could’ve lived leisurely as a mere human, which he is, and not connect himself with wolves like me, but he did anyway.
“It’s a full moon tonight, right? Are you sure you’re supposed to head out today?” Chanyeol muttered, eyes still focused on the road. It was a usual concern for Chanyeol either for me or the people of Seoul. Chanyeol knew better than let me go for my usual routine, but today I feel a little adventurous, giving myself a familiar morning, and later, dreaded night. I had to be home before the clock strikes five, because I might shift anytime, and dangerously, anywhere. “Are you sure we should leave today?”
“It’s okay, Yeol. I’ll stay until noon so we can have plenty of time to get home. I just need a quick dance to keep me sane. It’s gonna be a long night, you know that.” I replied calmly.
“Okay. Just call me if you feel anything. I’ll have you home in no time.”
A bubble of gratefulness swelled my heart of a minute. If not for Chanyeol, I would have lost myself. If not for his humanity at my reach, I would’ve ended up as insane as my twin, letting the beast takeover who I am. Our kind’s population is discreetly but rapidly growing under the citizens’ noses and it won’t be new to me when news of animal attacks spread like wildfire in the neighbouring provinces and in no time, the city. If only I was born in a time of peace like the old times.
I remembered what my father used to tell me growing up - that there was a coming change and we should be the first to conform to it. My twin and I never understood his words, until the change happened and shook every principle and ideal that held the wolves together as a species.
The order of things was drastically altered. Omegas were no longer considered lower-ranked. An Alpha gets supreme authority over anyone who is not, but these lowborns, betas and omegas alike, are given respect due to them depending on their stature in life and more. Non-alphas were given a specific breed, or kind, based on their natural wolf abilities. There were trackers, hounds, hunters, caretakers that served packs in their own unique way, but still under an Alpha’s authority.
When the change took place, there were Alphas who instigated an uprising. They demanded that the change be void and make the betas and omegas be reinstated to their original status. The Alphas felt that their authority was challenged and they can’t let it happen. My father was one of those who conformed to the change and I knew better why. It cost him his life, for me and for the next generations of the Kims. My father desired for his twins to have the freedom we deserved, because we were no Alphas like him. Kai and I were born Omegas, a hunter and a caretaker, respectively.
All these memories from the past crushed my soul. When Kai and I were growing up, we were considered equals. We were both omegas, nothing more, nothing less. The change affected us severely when Kai was labelled a hunter, the strongest among us, body built to kill and destroy, and I, a caretaker, a mother and a support to the packs, weak and fainthearted, always loving and gentle. If only I was born differently, a hound perhaps, I would’ve been a great partner for my twin, but no, I was born an omega and a caretaker, which puts me under all the ranks there is. I’m a candidate for being bullied by any wolf, specifically Alphas who only wanted my kind as their slaves, sex slaves specifically.
The truth always made my stomach churn in different emotions. Of all kinds, why was I born a caretaker? I accepted the fact I wasn’t born an Alpha like my father and uncles, but least of the least of my kind? Not so. So I worked my way out. I left all the people who knew me behind. I left the people who used and abused me for who I am. I left my twin who saw me not as a brother, but as a weakling who was born to please him and his friends. He made fun of me and I had to leave. I was weak, and in that weakness, I built my facade of a stronger wolf. I can never be bullied by any wolf higher than me, and from this I built my solitude.
“We’re here, Jongin.” Chanyeol beamed as he parked and pushed his door open. He opened my door as a force of habit, which I asked him to stop. I jumped out the car with a bag slung on my shoulder, closing the door myself. “Call me if you need me.” He muttered as he made his way to the driver’s seat.
“See you later, boss.” He winked, before driving off to who knows where.
I made my way to the glass walls of the empty studio, fishing my keys from my bag to unlock the doors and help myself in. Today was supposed to be a no-class day, and I can have the studio to myself. It was a familiar routine to me, but unlike other days, I came earlier by a few hours. I walked straight to the speakers to connect my player, letting the speaker blare the song I was listening to through my earphones during the ride.
After a quick stretching routine, I made my way to the centre of the room in front the mirrors, waiting for the next song to play. My body was ready and excitement made my heart pound for this is my fine line of sanity, my edge and my comfort at the same time.
I began to move, dancing to the music, setting myself free from the wicked memories I’ve been unknowingly thinking of this morning. It’s all in the past, as I always remind myself, but it still haunted me up to this day.
“I told you this is the place. If you dance like that I’m paying the place thrice the fee.” A barely audible whisper woke me up from my concentration. I opened my eyes mid-turn, finding a couple of guys by the studio entrance. It was obviously a whisper from the shorter guy, but given my wolf abilities, it was crystal clear to my ears.
“Hi. I’m sorry to interrupt your little magic there.” He smiled, his full lips curving up. It was heart-shaped, and made him look sweet; add to that, his eyes were so round it made him look innocent. But the look in his eyes was a gaze of a predator. The one beside him, though, spelled every opposite thing the other showed. He was taller by inches, just an inch or two taller than me. He looked dangerous, handsomely at that, but the look in his eyes showed innocence and gentleness.
I straightened my back, building my walls back up. “It’s okay. Do you need anything?” I asked, walking to the speakers to shut off the music. The two walked closer to me, the shorter one dragging the other by his elbow.
“My brother here wanted to enrol to a dance class. I was told by a friend that this is one of -
And then it hit me. His remaining words became incoherent to me, and my wolf was basically prowling inside. A sweet scent invaded my senses, awakening the thirst inside me. My instincts was muttering a mantra, making my head spin from the struggle.
Mate, mate, mate - my instinct screamed.
“Are you alright?” The taller guy asked. I looked up to him quickly before looking away, sensing that my eyes were glowing in the sudden rush of emotions. I calmed myself down a bit by breathing in and out repeatedly, before looking back at the two who seemed to be confused and surprised with what just happened.
“Sorry, don’t mind me. What was that again?” I asked.
The shorter guy cleared his throat before speaking again. “I’m Kyungsoo and this is my younger brother, Sehun. He wanted to enrol for dance class and we’re here because my friend said this is one of the best studios.” He explained, “Are you accepting new students?”
“Of course. We’re closed today, though. You can come the day after tomorrow.” I replied. The two nodded in response.
“We’re not planning on heading out anyway these two days, so yes, the day after tomorrow, it is.” Kyungsoo muttered, his gaze on me unfaltering.
“You know where the exit is, then. I’ll see you, Sehun.” I muttered blankly, not letting Kyungsoo intimidate me with his stare. A perilous smirk ghosted over his lip for a minute before he spoke again.
“I’ll see you soon, --“ He mumbled, “I didn’t quite catch your name, though.”
“Kim Jongin.”
He nodded once before taking his brother’s elbow with his hand, “Bye Jongin. Let’s go, Sehun.” And they walked out the studio, leaving their masked scents in the air. The distracting scent they covered themselves with would’ve hid them from any wolf, but not to a caretaker like me. I always know when an Alpha is around, and with how my wolf is prowling like a wild one, a perfect mate just stood in front me, but I’m not sure who.
X
I stir in my sleep as I felt my body painfully shift back human. It got easier in years, making it bearable for me during the full moons, unlike the first few years the curse took my body. It was a long night, but being under the curse for years, I was fully prepared for my shift.
When I went out the small confinement I had built in my penthouse, it was dawn, and bright orange and blue lighted up the skies as the sun started to rise. I dressed myself in my usual sweats and a plain white shirt, feeling the heat still tingling over my skin. Mornings after shift made me hot usually, and with no company with me, I opted to go for a run until I’m breathless and the heat of my wolf completely forgotten and sated for the day. It’ll go on for a week, like cycles for human women, with my hormones hyped up and the need to mate too strong to be ignored. It would be the same for any wolf at this period of time, but being in Seoul for months, being out in the open is considered safe for me. I’ve never ran into any of my kind, that is, until yesterday.
I quickly put on my shoes and went out my door, pressing on the down button of the elevator. I waited for a minute, and watched the number on the indicator above go up from twelve to thirty, the floor which I am on. With a ding, the door slid open, revealing an empty car with a very familiar scent. I tried to shake it off. My senses are amplified and catching scents in the air is a usual thing. I leaned back to the cold wall to collect my thoughts, closing my eyes as the car went down.
Suddenly, a whiff of strong inhuman scent invades my nose once again, and my eyes were quick to open to check the source. The elevator door was already closing, and Sehun just got in. Beside him, the floor indicator said six.
“Hi.” He greeted. “Rough night?”
I nodded.
“Me, too.”
We stared at each other for a while, awkward as hell without anything to talk about. He might have sensed already that I’m a wolf, too, sensing the tension in the air with the strong scent he’s clouding me with. He was a wearing sweats, too, with a matching jacket. The elevator dings again, signalling that we have arrived in the lobby.
“Are you going for a run?” I thought, but realized I might have said it loud since Sehun suddenly responded with a yes.
“Maybe we can run together?” Again, my mouth spoke even before my brain formed the thought. Damn, this wolf. During these times, I slip control of my mouth to the wolf in me.
“Sure.” Sehun responded, a smile forming on his thin lips. He walked gracefully slow out the elevator, letting me follow closely behind. We were out of the building in no time, and we were both taking quick breaths. I had to, to calm myself down from the budding heat inside me, taking in too much of the other’s scent. Blame the heat in me that with one look from Sehun, my wolf would be willing to give in to the Alpha.
“Let’s go. I’m feeling uncomfortable already I feel like punching a wall.” He muttered. He looked at me as if waiting for a response, and when I nodded, he quickly jogged to the streets, and with the direction we were heading, the nearest open forest would be our destination.
We ran silently, trying to sprint in pace that’s humanely as possible. I can run faster than my current speed, and obviously, Sehun can run even faster, but we assumed settlement for a leisurely pace to not look like super humans in the middle of Seoul. Running for a while with the cold breeze fanning my face and hair relaxed me, finally. My skin felt cool with the wind and sweat combined, and I felt my nerves calm.
Sehun led me to a park, the biggest in the city, where families go for picnics and such. It was hectares of nature, and they let citizens enjoy the view and serenity in the middle of a bustling city. We stopped just after passing by the entrance, Sehun finding a stone bench to sit on.
“Okay, I’m calm now. We can talk like normal people.” He jokingly said. I chuckled, realizing that he knew. He already knows that we are the same.
“Yeah, I think I’m calm, too.” I replied, sitting a fair distance from him.
“No, you’re not.” He chuckled, “I can smell you, you know. I know you’re far from calm.” He stared at me for a while as I rehearsed the words he just said in my mind. I am calm, but not my wolf, I knew that.
“I think I’m calm enough.” I emphasized. He nodded as he smiled and looked away.
“How long have you been here?” He asked.
“About a year. You?”
He pursed his lips cutely before answering. “About a month. My hyung and I originally lived in Busan, but things kind of went out of hand there, so we left for Seoul. We moved in just a few days ago, but we’ve been in the city since after the last full moon.”
I remembered my case. Maybe it was the same with them? “What happened?”
“Well, my brother is against the change and he still is. It was a bloodbath until I told him he’ll lose me to it.” He said. “It was an okay thing, you know. We’re not living in the nineteenth century to be traditional and follow the rules of the ancients. I was hoping to find someone I can love truly and mark as my mate, but not in a way that’s too cruel for omegas. My brother considered my stand and let go of his ideals and here we are, staying away from the chaos.”
“So that’s why Kyungsoo looked too...” I muttered, “dangerous.”
Sehun chuckled at this. “Well, contrary to his looks, he’s far more predatory than the usual wolves. His anti-conformity to the change made him that way. You can say he looked down on anyone, Alpha or not.”
“That’s cruel.”
He suddenly burst out laughing. “Yup. My brother’s that cruel. So I suggest you stay away. He’s not an Alpha to mess around with. I can still remember another Alpha talking about feeling like an omega when he was with hyung. Seriously, stay away.”
The suggestion kind of confused me. I wasn’t planning on meeting on his brother. If I was to decide on my fate, I’m not going to meet any Alpha soon, specifically Alphas like Kyungsoo. Sehun, maybe.
“How ‘bout you? Any story to tell?” He asked.
“Nothing really. My father got killed by the anti-change, and then my brother and I split ways. He embraced the curse and I’m the one to hate it. I decided to live in Seoul to forget what it was like to be who I am, but the full moon never failed to remind me what a beast I am.” I sighed.
“So you don’t like being wolf?”
“I do, but what happened to me in the past is something I’m not really fond off.” I explained.
“We can change that.” My voice suddenly responded but it wasn’t me, I swear. Sehun looked behind me by instinct, and I did, too. I was quick to stand up and jumped to a safe distance back when I find a mirror like reflection of me standing there.
“Hello, twin. Missed me?” It was Kai. He smirked wickedly. His hair was platinum silver, unlike the brown locks he had the last time I saw him. He waved a hand, taking the seat that I just left.
“Hi, I’m Kai.” He greeted Sehun who was still silently looking back and forth between me and my twin. My insides were raging in anger and frustration. It wasn’t supposed to be like this. Kai is not supposed to be here.
“Sehun.” The other responded absentmindedly. Kai stared at him for a while.
“You’re cute.”
“I’m sorry, Sehun. We should go.” I quickly said, taking Sehun’s arm, pulling him up to stand.
I knew that Sehun is an Alpha, a good one at that. He can stand up to Kai if he wanted, too, but my twin is much more vicious than any Alpha there is. He had a way with words that any Alpha will likely believe that Kai was an Alpha if he said so.
“I’m a far better taste, Sehun.” Kai muttered, making the both of us stop in our tracks.
“Excuse me?” I muttered back, finding the sudden remark totally unnecessary.
“Gee, we three are in heat. I came to find you because I missed you.” He said in a sarcastic tone. “And here,” pointing at Sehun, “is a good catch, twin. Can I take him?”
“Why don’t you find someone else to mess with and leave me the hell alone?” I muttered bravely. I wanted to scream my anger out. No way can I let my twin mess my life up here in Seoul.
“I live to make your life miserable, though. That’s what a twin is for.” He replied as he stood up.
“I never did that to you, Kai.”
“Regardless, that’s my life code. I love making you miserable, Jongin, that’s why I was searching for you. Thanks to a friend, I tracked you here and found you.”
“Leave me alone.”
“Leave him alone.” Sehun suddenly grunted. I felt his muscles tense up in my hand.
“No, honey.” Kai smirked, “this is family business, but you’re a good Alpha and I’d like to have a taste of you. That’s true.” He prowled, walking towards us and placing a hand over Sehun’s chest.
I watched as Sehun took a deep breath, as if inhaling my twin’s scent. I let go of my hold on him. Shit. The overflow of hormones were back to clouding my senses. The tension between me and my twin, combined with the unexplainable tension between Kai and Sehun is talking me to a dark place.
“Let’s go home.” Sehun groaned. He said it no one in particular, as he was not looking at me or Kai. He ran quickly away to our building’s direction and I ran closely behind. What pissed me off was that Kai was running beside me, trying to intimidate me with his smirks and his looks. Strangers were taking a second look at us, probably amazed by a view of twins, completely identical at that. Kai and I were said to be carbon copies of each other, except for the hair, which can be easily dyed. Apart from the colours of our hair, everything between us is the same. Our eyes, our lips, the build of our bodies, skin colours, and hell, even our voices are the same. The only thing that differentiated us was our mannerisms. I was the one to smile when Kai frowned. I was the one to shut up when Kai barks back. I was the one to love and understand when Kai rebelled. I was part of support and defence, and he’s the leader for offence.
“It’s going to fun, twin. After this heat, don’t worry. It’ll be long until I come to piss you off again.” He muttered.
“Shut up and get lost.” I whispered back. No way will I let him destroy what I built so far. Even if he said he’s to say for the week, he’s not someone to trust. Until he gets what he wants, I’m not to let my guard down against him.
“Oh come on, Jongin. We had fun during the old times, right?” He joked. Yes, there were good memories and fun competition between us when we were young, but the change turned everything around. I was placed on a disadvantage and he on a rank higher than I am.
I tried to sprint quicker, hoping for a miracle to outrun my brother. I don’t want to deal with him now, nor ever. I found Sehun stop in front our building, so I did, too, when I reached him. Kai was leisurely walking already and looking around the buildings.
“Wow, so this is where you guys live?” Kai mutters as he reached us. “This is one good life, Jongin.”
“It’s none of your business.” I snarled back. “Go back to where you came from.”
“I’m not going anywhere, twin. I’ll spice up your life for a while and-
“Shut up you two.” Sehun’s jaw was tight. He’s probably pissed off by our constant bickering.
“Sorry.” I quickly muttered. Kai chuckled.
“The heat is eating me up with you two omegas around me, okay? I’m not going to lie. I want one sweet fuck right now and I’m horny as hell and your ego battle is making my head spin. Your scents are giving me a headache.” He groaned. His fingers raked through his jet black hair, frustration obvious with the expression of his face.
“I can help you with that.” Kai bluntly said. I looked at him with disgust. He basically acts like a slut during heat and he’s not ashamed of it.
“Hell, you look, act, and talk like Jongin, but I’m not gonna take you just because of that. I feel. I’m not some bastard who takes just any willing omega.”
“Oh, come on, Alpha.” Kai whispered, closing in on Sehun once again. I push him away, standing in front of Sehun.
“Stop this, Kai. I’m not going to play games with you. Back off.” I snarled back. My wolf is getting territorial, obviously enjoying the conflict with my twin’s wolf. I don’t want this.
I sensed Sehun sighing behind me. He suddenly walked inside the building, his fists closed on both his sides. He quickly hopped onto the elevator, leaving me and Kai on the streets.
“Now we were both dumped. Hell, I want to get laid, Jongin. Give it up.” Kai muttered.
“Kai, get lost. I told you over and over I’m not gonna play games with you. Go back to where you came from and stay away from my life. I’ve had enough of you.”
He sighed and pouted suddenly. “Where’s the fun in that? Okay, sorry.” He put both his palms up. “I seriously wanted to check up on you, as a brother, believe it or not. I wanted to wait until you’re alone before I made an appearance, but hell the Alpha you were with, God, I don’t know how to explain him. You feel what I feel, right? The voice in my head, my wolf, exactly, is screaming ‘mate, mate, mate’ and it’s killing me.”
I stared at him wide-eyed, remembering what happened yesterday when I met Sehun. It wasn’t the effects of full moon. It was instincts that were telling me Sehun is my possible mate, and it was the same with Kai?
“That look in your face is ridiculously cute, twin.” He smirked. “I’ll be good for the week like a real brother and I’m off, I promise. My life’s been boring ever since you left me. Blame the full moon if I came too aggressive. I wasn’t planning on that.”
“And why am I supposed to believe you?” I asked, finding his confession unbelievable. I knew my twin by heart to just let him have his way just like that.
“I don’t know!” he screamed, crossing his arms over his chest, “I promise I’ll be good. I just wanted to see you. I know I’m a full blown jerk, but hey, putting that aside, I can be a good brother.”
“in which you failed miserably.”
“But you’re thinking about it right?” He asked. He knew me too well. I was actually on the verge of believing him, blame my caretaker instincts to accept and love all the same.
“Fine, Kai. Don’t blow this.”
“Cool. Not I won’t, but the Alpha, I’d probably will.”
“Shut up.”
X
If there was something that surprised me more than seeing my twin out of nowhere after years, it would be finding a glorious half-naked Sehun right outside my door. It was about two days after our ridiculous incident with Kai, and with my twin’s sudden appearance, I had to cancel my classes for a week at the studio. I don’t know how he knew the floor I was in, but it’s probably his wolf that led him here.
“I can smell him from inside.” Kai groaned as he approached me on the door. “What are you waiting for? Let him come inside.” He pushed me to the side, giving way to Sehun who looked out of himself. His hair was tousled, and his eyes were droopy. He looked like he just woke up. Kai ran to the kitchen as soon as Sehun stepped in and I heard clinks of glasses along with the fridge closing. I led Sehun to the couch, where Kai’s pillow and blanket was, and let him sit there. He immediately hugged the pillow, burying his face onto it.
“Here’s some water. You might need it.” Kai sweetly said. I felt like throwing up with the sudden kindness. I glared at him, unbelieving.
“I’m capable of good things, twin. Stop looking at me like that.” He mouthed.
“So, what are you doing here, Sehun?” I asked.
“Sick.” He muttered under his breath. I quickly sat beside him to check on his temperature. He was too warm. Before I pulled back my hand, he took it and rested it to his hands.
“I’m gonna get some medicine.” I said, pulling my hand away from his grasp and stood up to get to my medicine stash in the kitchen. I wonder why Sehun would come here out of nowhere. He has a brother who would take care of him anyway.
Brushing my thoughts aside, I walked back to the living room with a pill in hand, finding the room empty. “We’re in your room, twin!” Kai yelled. I found the door to my room wide open, Sehun stumbling over his feet while Kai supported his frame. He placed Sehun on my bed, tucking him below the duvet.
“He’s a big baby.” Kai mumbled. “Is he really an Alpha?”
“It’s obvious, you know.” I replied as I sat beside Sehun was half-asleep already. “Here, take this and get some sleep.” He took the pill weakly and popped it into his mouth.
“Sorry.” He whispered. “Hyung won’t be home ‘till night.”
“How sick is he?” Kai asked. He was leaning onto the wall beside my bed, looking down at Sehun.
“And you’re concerned because..?”
“I don’t know? I just am.” He replied.
Unknowingly, we took turns into checking on Sehun. The alpha slept motionless, even though we had to move him to put a shirt on him. Kai constantly put a wet towel over Sehun’s forehead, and I had to cook something for him and make him eat and drnk his medicines after.
A few hours after Sehun slept, Kai and I were quietly watching some random program on TV. My door receiver suddenly beeps, signalling that someone was waiting outside my door. I hurriedly pressed the button, and an image was shown on the screen. He was wearing a cap, hiding his face from the camera.
“Who is it?” I asked.
“Kyungsoo. I’m here to take my brother.” He replied.
My heart leapt at the sound of his voice that I had to run to get the door opened for him. Sehun told me to stay away and here I was, looking straight back at his brother.
“Is he alright?” He asked, pulling his cap off, revealing his black hair, ruffling it a little to puff it up.
“He’s sleeping.” I replied.
He took one quick breath before nodding.
“Come in.” I said, moving away. He said a quick ‘thanks’ before stepping inside. He eyed the apartment and then me, before he finally noticed another me on the couch.
“Oh, this is my twin, Kai.” I introduced. “Kai, this is Kyungsoo, Sehun’s brother.”
“Nice to meet you.” Kai smiled. It was a common thing for people to look at me and then Kai to check our similarities, and it wasn’t the case with Kyungsoo. He only looked at Kai and then back at me once, asking where his brother was. Kai was obviously offended and was putting on his wicked mask on, but I mouthed him a ‘no.’. He quickly rolled his eyes and slumped back the sofa.
“He’s in my room.” I replied, making way to my room where Sehun was. As soon as I pushed the door open, Sehun was already sitting up from the bed.
“Come on, let’s go home.” Kyungsoo muttered as soon as he found Sehun. The younger frowned, a little taken-aback with the sudden command. He just woke up anyway.
“He can stay for a while.” I said sternly. Kyungsoo’s head turned towards me.
“We’re going.” It was turning into a snarl, his fists were clenched in both his sides.
“He can stay here if he wanted to.” I replied back.
“Don’t.” Sehun whispered. We both looked at him, watching him as he planted his feet onto the carpet. “I’m better now, hyung, we can go home. Don’t go Alpha on Jongin, now.”
Kyungsoo sighed. “Sorry, I can’t control it.” He was obviously trying to hide the irritation from his voice. The reason for it was unknown to me, and I had the urge know why.
“Thanks, Jongin. Where’s Kai?” Sehun mumbled as he walked to us slowly.
“He’s watching tv outside.” I replied.
“Okay, I’ll leave you two alone.”
“I thought I should stay away from your hyung?” I chuckled. Sehun waved his hand as he ignored my question. I found Kyungsoo staring at me, brows furrowed. “What?” I inquired, not liking the look of his face. Strangely, a sweet but strong scent clouded my senses again.
“Fuck this. Get inside.” He snarled suddenly.
I didn’t budge. No way will I let another order me around in my own house.
“You can leave now if you want to. Take Sehun with you if you want.” I replied, walking away to the direction of the living room until Kyungsoo’s hand was on my shoulder, gripping on the skin tightly.
“I said get inside.” He muttered.
Unknowing of what the Alpha is planning on, I shook his hand off my shoulder and continued to walk. Suddenly, I was lifted in the air and the world was suddenly upside down. He was carrying me on his shoulder and I had no time to scream for Kai when the door was suddenly shut behind us.
“Was that hard?” He asked, pushing me to the back of the door.
“Of course. I’m not supposed to take orders from anyone inside my own house. You’re the guest here, and I’m the host.” I barked back. I’ve been in a similar situation like this, and no way am I getting bullied again.
“The hell you would. I’m the Alpha, here, Jongin.” He whispered as he closed in on me. His scent was clouding all my senses, and he smelled so sweet, my God, overriding my rational side. My wolf is prowling once again inside.
“I know you’re an Alpha.” I said, pushing him away with both my hands on his chest. He had a smaller frame than me, but he didn’t flinch at all. “But that doesn’t mean you’re an Alpha to me.”
He snickered, gently lifting his arms and placing a hand on the wood behind me, just beside my head. He leaned in to my shoulder, inhaling.
“Let’s see if that’s true.” He murmured.
“I mean it. I’m not one to be bullied, Kyungsoo. You can search for another omega.” I mumbled.
“I want to be straightforward to you, Jongin. We both are in heat. I smell you all the way down to sixth floor, while you’re up here at the thirtieth. Tell me why is that?”
“I don’t know. I’m not doing it on purpose.”
“Yes, you’re not, but I was invited here.” His lips ghosted the hollow my neck and my skin started to tingle.
“Nobody invited you here, Kyungsoo.” I did my best to appear strong, but on the inside I felt like melting. “Besides,” I thought of lying, anything that would keep me away from Kyungsoo’s predatory eyes. “I like your brother.”
He growled at this, his chest heaving as he took quick breaths. “Your wolf is telling me otherwise.”
“I know what I want. I’m attracted to your brother and that’s -
I was cut by a sharp pain at the back of my head, along with relentless lips moving brutally against mine. Strong hands were both on my arms, confining me to the wall behind me. I can’t move, not when Kyungsoo was all over me.
I tasted something metallic and I knew Kyungsoo had made my lips bleed. He pulled back a little, his lips a mere centimetre away from mine. “You smell divine, Jongin. You’re making my head spin. Since the day I saw and sensed you I had to have you.”
This is insane. I’m not going to some Alpha’s toy just because he’s in heat. I am, too, but I’ll never give myself to such animal.
“I know you’re unsubmissive, Jongin. I’m here to correct that.” He whispered in my ear.
“Excuse me?” I tried to release myself from his hold, but it was a futile attempt. An Alpha is stronger than I am.
He chuckled a little before staring straight to my eyes. His blue eyes started to glow, and my body felt weak all of a sudden, the reverie inside me melting away. I hear my wolf howling inside, calling onto another. Heat started to pool in my stomach and my head started to spin. All my senses were cut off suddenly and only Kyungsoo’s presence was invading them. “I’m taking you as mate, Jongin. Would you like that?” He asked, tracing a finger from the base of my throat and down my chest to the hem of my shirt.
He slit the cloth with his nail, revealing my torso. “Now, why don’t you try running out and tell me your wolf doesn’t want me.” He took quick steps backward, and then turned around to my bed and laid there.
I tried to breathe in and out and calm myself. My wolf is almost out of its cage and I can’t let that happen. Sehun might have been the perfect choice. He’s the kind of Alpha that would’ve loved and cared, but my wolf, my instincts and everything else was telling me otherwise.
“No. Get out of my house now!” I screamed. When I opened my eyes, Kyungsoo jumped on the bed and landed on right in front me pushing me back again against the wall.
“Fine, let’s take this the hard way. I’m your mate, for fuck’s sake. Why can’t you feel this?” He murmured with a hint of hurt and disappointment in his voice. He turned me around, pushing me harshly as he tugged my sweatpants down.
“Jongin, are you sure that you want to disobey me?” He whispered against my ear. I stood there unmoving, conflicting thoughts running inside my head. “I’m your Alpha, Jongin. I’m your mate. Listen to your wolf.” I felt warm fingers sliding along my spine, and the touch left burning tracks onto my skin. My heart was pounding, and heat continued to burn inside me.
“You’re not.” I whispered, abandoning the wild wolf inside me that is so willing to give in.
“Your body says otherwise, Jongin.” I felt his finger run up my inner thighs, “You’re leaking for me, Jongin, and you smell so sweet for me.”
“I’m in heat, that’s normal.” I mumbled back, moaning a little when I felt his finger touch slightly my entrance.
“I’m losing control here. Let it go or I won’t be gentle with you.” He groaned. “Let me say this once, Jongin. Submit. You can’t fool me with words because it was your wolf who invited me here.”
A sharp pain stung in my insides. He pushed a finger in without a word and I was already breathless. My heart was pounding in my chest. I can’t think anymore, not when Kyungsoo was thrusting in and out of me.
“Good boy.” He whispered. I felt a bubble of satisfaction in my chest, for the first time in years. “Now, I want to be really, really gentle with you. Will you let me take you here or let’s -
“Here, please.” I whispered, panting. I knew I was wet enough; my heat has prepared me all too much to be taken by an Alpha anytime. But first times always hurt, they said.
Without looking back at the Alpha behind me, I reached for the button of his jeans, feeling the hard buldge over the denim with my hand. “Let me do it, Jongin. Just stay still and let me take you.” He growled. I hear the rusting of clothes and a belt lock hitting the floor, and I can’t help but anticipate what would happen next.
He pushed his body onto my back, squeezed me with his body against mine. I felt his cock between my buttocks, teasing. He was lubricating himself with my fluids, and in no time was pushing in.
“You can back out now that I’m weak in the knees.” He whispered, halfway in. How the hell do I back out in this kind of situation? I felt my insides being ripped in half but yet I can’t scream. My wolf was patient, very, very tolerating.
“Fuck. This is what I’ve been thirsty for all my life and I found you finally.” Kyungsoo murmured as he thrusted hard in, burying him inside me. I felt my knees giving up on me, and slumped down, with Kyungsoo still behind me.
It was a compromising position for us, but I dared not to think anymore. My wolf chose my mate already and I have no power to shy away.
Kyungsoo started to thrust in and out of me, slowly at first, but hard and deep enough to let me know how much he wanted this. As he successfully elicit a moan out of me, his thrusts went faster and harder, hitting my sweet spot inside over and over. I felt him got harder inside me, pounding relentless and precise.
“Fuck, this is good.” Kyungsoo whispered, almost breathless as I am. “I’m-
I felt him swell inside, something hotter and slicker growing inside. His know was swelling. “This is what you get, Jongin. I hope you never-“ He grunted between his teeth. “fight me again.”
His thrusts became erratic and I was already a moaning mess. I felt him breach and his knot locked inside. “You feel so good, Jongin.” He moaned again. Slowly, he reached in front me and tugged my hand with his, pumping me in sync with his thrusts.
“Soo..” I moaned, feeling the pool of heat almost spilling into my release.
“Come for me, Jongin.” With a loud cry I did, and almost immediately I felt warm thick liquid spurting generously inside me. Kyungsoo came as hard, and we both found ourselves lying side by side on the floor, with his cock still inside me.
“Blame the full moon.” He panted. He snaked a hand over my waist as he pulled me closer to him.
“Blame the thirsty wolves.” I murmured back, sated and dead-tired from being claimed.
X
“Are you still going to fight over me?” Sehun asked as he sat down between me and my twin.
I heard Kyungsoo chuckling softly in the kitchen as he prepared dinner for us.
“I don’t think so.” Kai murmured as he slid closer to Sehun. “You’re mine to take, I guess.”
“Jongin told me you’re as brutal as my hyung there.” He pointed at the kitchen. I nod, agreeing to the idea.
“Yes, he is. He’s basically a bitch in a male’s body. He kills for fun and will make your life a living hell.” I muttered, remembering the days when animal attacks were the headlines in the newspapers in Bucheon before I left. It was all because of Kai and his new pack.
“It’s all in the past, Jongin. I told you I can be good if I want to.” He pouted. “But to kill is still fun. I love having someone at my mercy and-
“Shut it.” I interrupted. “I don’t want to hear gruesome details of your past and be reminded how cruel you were to me.”
“I swear, Jongin, I was just playing with you. I won’t kill you.”
“You almost did, though. That’s why I left home. You know that.” I replied back. The memories of the other Alphas from home made me cringe. I was a laughing stock.
“It was Kris and Jongdae, okay? I left them when I knew what they did to you. I tried to search you everywhere. Thanks to Minseok hyung, our tracker cousin, I found you here.”
“Dinner’s ready.” Kyungsoo said as he walked in from the kitchen. Sehun jumped up from the couch, leaving me with Kai for a few moments.
“Your new life’s great, Jongin. I’m envious, really.”
My wolf howled inside me. It was accepting, and trusting. I’m a caretaker after all, and it’s who I am. “Then stay here, I think. We can be a pack with Kyungsoo and Sehun.”
“I’m not complaining!” Kyungsoo yelled from the kitchen, letting us know what he thought of my words.
“I’ve got to call Chanyeol now and tell him what’s up. He might be worrying if you killed me already.” I remembered. I was about to reach my phone when Kai stopped me.
“About that, I’m sure Chanyeol would love the time alone. I brought Baek here in the city with me, and they found each other. Chanyeol cried a bucket when he saw his long lost love.”
❊ title: heat
❊ pairings: kai/d.o, slight!sehun/kai
❊ rating: nc17
❊ warnings: knotting, top!soo, dubcon/noncon
❊ word count: 7,676
❊ summary: Jongin wanted to live new life away from his past, and found a new start in the city of Seoul. After the full moon started his heat, he found himself in a compromising situation where his instincts were to be tested and challenged like never before.
❊ a/n: I wish I had more time, but still, thank you to the kind mods who were very considerate and approachable. Thank you for giving me a shot at this though I feel like I failed miserably in writing an above-standard fic for this exchange. Still, it was fun! I’ll be signing up early next year! More power!
God knows how long I had to put up with it. I’ve always wanted a fresh start - a new life, a rebirth with a different name, a different bloodline, a different pack. I wanted a clean slate; my history vanished for my and everyone else’s memories. For years, I’ve lived simply under the authority of my father, an Alpha, behind the shadow of my twin brother, Kai. When my father was killed by another Alpha, our pack was scattered across the land, and I found myself the freedom I’ve always wanted.
“Good morning, Jongin.” The building’s security opened the door of my black Bentley. I stepped inside the vehicle, greeted also by my driver who was wearing far fancier clothes than the sweats I’m wearing today.
“Where are we headed?” Chanyeol asked. I actually left the penthouse about three hours earlier than usual, wanting a few hours for myself at the studio I’ve been teaching in for the past six months.
“The studio, Chan.” I replied. He nodded adn drove off almost immediately.
“Of course.”
I watched the road as we passed by rows of commercial buildings. Seoul was beautiful in every way. When I came here a year ago, I knew I can live here the life I’ve wanted. From the mountains of Bucheon, I moved to Seoul with my share of inheritance. I vowed over my father’s grave that I’ll live in accordance to his will that I’ll never be like my twin who might have wreaked havoc now wherever he could be. We were born wolves after all, and violence was a part of who we are, especially during a full moon. Living in the city made it harder for me to adjust, but it’s a risk I was willing to take.
Despite the riches my father left, I hid the extravagance from everyone I was acquainted to and lived a simple life. My penthouse in Gangnam was a dead giveaway to it though, but no was close enough anyway to pry on my life, except for my driver and confidant, Park Chanyeol. His family has been serving ours for generations, and I’ll always be grateful that even after what happened to our pack, he stuck with me even in the city. He was free from the code of serving my family when ours broke apart, but he stayed anyway. He could’ve lived leisurely as a mere human, which he is, and not connect himself with wolves like me, but he did anyway.
“It’s a full moon tonight, right? Are you sure you’re supposed to head out today?” Chanyeol muttered, eyes still focused on the road. It was a usual concern for Chanyeol either for me or the people of Seoul. Chanyeol knew better than let me go for my usual routine, but today I feel a little adventurous, giving myself a familiar morning, and later, dreaded night. I had to be home before the clock strikes five, because I might shift anytime, and dangerously, anywhere. “Are you sure we should leave today?”
“It’s okay, Yeol. I’ll stay until noon so we can have plenty of time to get home. I just need a quick dance to keep me sane. It’s gonna be a long night, you know that.” I replied calmly.
“Okay. Just call me if you feel anything. I’ll have you home in no time.”
A bubble of gratefulness swelled my heart of a minute. If not for Chanyeol, I would have lost myself. If not for his humanity at my reach, I would’ve ended up as insane as my twin, letting the beast takeover who I am. Our kind’s population is discreetly but rapidly growing under the citizens’ noses and it won’t be new to me when news of animal attacks spread like wildfire in the neighbouring provinces and in no time, the city. If only I was born in a time of peace like the old times.
I remembered what my father used to tell me growing up - that there was a coming change and we should be the first to conform to it. My twin and I never understood his words, until the change happened and shook every principle and ideal that held the wolves together as a species.
The order of things was drastically altered. Omegas were no longer considered lower-ranked. An Alpha gets supreme authority over anyone who is not, but these lowborns, betas and omegas alike, are given respect due to them depending on their stature in life and more. Non-alphas were given a specific breed, or kind, based on their natural wolf abilities. There were trackers, hounds, hunters, caretakers that served packs in their own unique way, but still under an Alpha’s authority.
When the change took place, there were Alphas who instigated an uprising. They demanded that the change be void and make the betas and omegas be reinstated to their original status. The Alphas felt that their authority was challenged and they can’t let it happen. My father was one of those who conformed to the change and I knew better why. It cost him his life, for me and for the next generations of the Kims. My father desired for his twins to have the freedom we deserved, because we were no Alphas like him. Kai and I were born Omegas, a hunter and a caretaker, respectively.
All these memories from the past crushed my soul. When Kai and I were growing up, we were considered equals. We were both omegas, nothing more, nothing less. The change affected us severely when Kai was labelled a hunter, the strongest among us, body built to kill and destroy, and I, a caretaker, a mother and a support to the packs, weak and fainthearted, always loving and gentle. If only I was born differently, a hound perhaps, I would’ve been a great partner for my twin, but no, I was born an omega and a caretaker, which puts me under all the ranks there is. I’m a candidate for being bullied by any wolf, specifically Alphas who only wanted my kind as their slaves, sex slaves specifically.
The truth always made my stomach churn in different emotions. Of all kinds, why was I born a caretaker? I accepted the fact I wasn’t born an Alpha like my father and uncles, but least of the least of my kind? Not so. So I worked my way out. I left all the people who knew me behind. I left the people who used and abused me for who I am. I left my twin who saw me not as a brother, but as a weakling who was born to please him and his friends. He made fun of me and I had to leave. I was weak, and in that weakness, I built my facade of a stronger wolf. I can never be bullied by any wolf higher than me, and from this I built my solitude.
“We’re here, Jongin.” Chanyeol beamed as he parked and pushed his door open. He opened my door as a force of habit, which I asked him to stop. I jumped out the car with a bag slung on my shoulder, closing the door myself. “Call me if you need me.” He muttered as he made his way to the driver’s seat.
“See you later, boss.” He winked, before driving off to who knows where.
I made my way to the glass walls of the empty studio, fishing my keys from my bag to unlock the doors and help myself in. Today was supposed to be a no-class day, and I can have the studio to myself. It was a familiar routine to me, but unlike other days, I came earlier by a few hours. I walked straight to the speakers to connect my player, letting the speaker blare the song I was listening to through my earphones during the ride.
After a quick stretching routine, I made my way to the centre of the room in front the mirrors, waiting for the next song to play. My body was ready and excitement made my heart pound for this is my fine line of sanity, my edge and my comfort at the same time.
I began to move, dancing to the music, setting myself free from the wicked memories I’ve been unknowingly thinking of this morning. It’s all in the past, as I always remind myself, but it still haunted me up to this day.
“I told you this is the place. If you dance like that I’m paying the place thrice the fee.” A barely audible whisper woke me up from my concentration. I opened my eyes mid-turn, finding a couple of guys by the studio entrance. It was obviously a whisper from the shorter guy, but given my wolf abilities, it was crystal clear to my ears.
“Hi. I’m sorry to interrupt your little magic there.” He smiled, his full lips curving up. It was heart-shaped, and made him look sweet; add to that, his eyes were so round it made him look innocent. But the look in his eyes was a gaze of a predator. The one beside him, though, spelled every opposite thing the other showed. He was taller by inches, just an inch or two taller than me. He looked dangerous, handsomely at that, but the look in his eyes showed innocence and gentleness.
I straightened my back, building my walls back up. “It’s okay. Do you need anything?” I asked, walking to the speakers to shut off the music. The two walked closer to me, the shorter one dragging the other by his elbow.
“My brother here wanted to enrol to a dance class. I was told by a friend that this is one of -
And then it hit me. His remaining words became incoherent to me, and my wolf was basically prowling inside. A sweet scent invaded my senses, awakening the thirst inside me. My instincts was muttering a mantra, making my head spin from the struggle.
Mate, mate, mate - my instinct screamed.
“Are you alright?” The taller guy asked. I looked up to him quickly before looking away, sensing that my eyes were glowing in the sudden rush of emotions. I calmed myself down a bit by breathing in and out repeatedly, before looking back at the two who seemed to be confused and surprised with what just happened.
“Sorry, don’t mind me. What was that again?” I asked.
The shorter guy cleared his throat before speaking again. “I’m Kyungsoo and this is my younger brother, Sehun. He wanted to enrol for dance class and we’re here because my friend said this is one of the best studios.” He explained, “Are you accepting new students?”
“Of course. We’re closed today, though. You can come the day after tomorrow.” I replied. The two nodded in response.
“We’re not planning on heading out anyway these two days, so yes, the day after tomorrow, it is.” Kyungsoo muttered, his gaze on me unfaltering.
“You know where the exit is, then. I’ll see you, Sehun.” I muttered blankly, not letting Kyungsoo intimidate me with his stare. A perilous smirk ghosted over his lip for a minute before he spoke again.
“I’ll see you soon, --“ He mumbled, “I didn’t quite catch your name, though.”
“Kim Jongin.”
He nodded once before taking his brother’s elbow with his hand, “Bye Jongin. Let’s go, Sehun.” And they walked out the studio, leaving their masked scents in the air. The distracting scent they covered themselves with would’ve hid them from any wolf, but not to a caretaker like me. I always know when an Alpha is around, and with how my wolf is prowling like a wild one, a perfect mate just stood in front me, but I’m not sure who.
X
I stir in my sleep as I felt my body painfully shift back human. It got easier in years, making it bearable for me during the full moons, unlike the first few years the curse took my body. It was a long night, but being under the curse for years, I was fully prepared for my shift.
When I went out the small confinement I had built in my penthouse, it was dawn, and bright orange and blue lighted up the skies as the sun started to rise. I dressed myself in my usual sweats and a plain white shirt, feeling the heat still tingling over my skin. Mornings after shift made me hot usually, and with no company with me, I opted to go for a run until I’m breathless and the heat of my wolf completely forgotten and sated for the day. It’ll go on for a week, like cycles for human women, with my hormones hyped up and the need to mate too strong to be ignored. It would be the same for any wolf at this period of time, but being in Seoul for months, being out in the open is considered safe for me. I’ve never ran into any of my kind, that is, until yesterday.
I quickly put on my shoes and went out my door, pressing on the down button of the elevator. I waited for a minute, and watched the number on the indicator above go up from twelve to thirty, the floor which I am on. With a ding, the door slid open, revealing an empty car with a very familiar scent. I tried to shake it off. My senses are amplified and catching scents in the air is a usual thing. I leaned back to the cold wall to collect my thoughts, closing my eyes as the car went down.
Suddenly, a whiff of strong inhuman scent invades my nose once again, and my eyes were quick to open to check the source. The elevator door was already closing, and Sehun just got in. Beside him, the floor indicator said six.
“Hi.” He greeted. “Rough night?”
I nodded.
“Me, too.”
We stared at each other for a while, awkward as hell without anything to talk about. He might have sensed already that I’m a wolf, too, sensing the tension in the air with the strong scent he’s clouding me with. He was a wearing sweats, too, with a matching jacket. The elevator dings again, signalling that we have arrived in the lobby.
“Are you going for a run?” I thought, but realized I might have said it loud since Sehun suddenly responded with a yes.
“Maybe we can run together?” Again, my mouth spoke even before my brain formed the thought. Damn, this wolf. During these times, I slip control of my mouth to the wolf in me.
“Sure.” Sehun responded, a smile forming on his thin lips. He walked gracefully slow out the elevator, letting me follow closely behind. We were out of the building in no time, and we were both taking quick breaths. I had to, to calm myself down from the budding heat inside me, taking in too much of the other’s scent. Blame the heat in me that with one look from Sehun, my wolf would be willing to give in to the Alpha.
“Let’s go. I’m feeling uncomfortable already I feel like punching a wall.” He muttered. He looked at me as if waiting for a response, and when I nodded, he quickly jogged to the streets, and with the direction we were heading, the nearest open forest would be our destination.
We ran silently, trying to sprint in pace that’s humanely as possible. I can run faster than my current speed, and obviously, Sehun can run even faster, but we assumed settlement for a leisurely pace to not look like super humans in the middle of Seoul. Running for a while with the cold breeze fanning my face and hair relaxed me, finally. My skin felt cool with the wind and sweat combined, and I felt my nerves calm.
Sehun led me to a park, the biggest in the city, where families go for picnics and such. It was hectares of nature, and they let citizens enjoy the view and serenity in the middle of a bustling city. We stopped just after passing by the entrance, Sehun finding a stone bench to sit on.
“Okay, I’m calm now. We can talk like normal people.” He jokingly said. I chuckled, realizing that he knew. He already knows that we are the same.
“Yeah, I think I’m calm, too.” I replied, sitting a fair distance from him.
“No, you’re not.” He chuckled, “I can smell you, you know. I know you’re far from calm.” He stared at me for a while as I rehearsed the words he just said in my mind. I am calm, but not my wolf, I knew that.
“I think I’m calm enough.” I emphasized. He nodded as he smiled and looked away.
“How long have you been here?” He asked.
“About a year. You?”
He pursed his lips cutely before answering. “About a month. My hyung and I originally lived in Busan, but things kind of went out of hand there, so we left for Seoul. We moved in just a few days ago, but we’ve been in the city since after the last full moon.”
I remembered my case. Maybe it was the same with them? “What happened?”
“Well, my brother is against the change and he still is. It was a bloodbath until I told him he’ll lose me to it.” He said. “It was an okay thing, you know. We’re not living in the nineteenth century to be traditional and follow the rules of the ancients. I was hoping to find someone I can love truly and mark as my mate, but not in a way that’s too cruel for omegas. My brother considered my stand and let go of his ideals and here we are, staying away from the chaos.”
“So that’s why Kyungsoo looked too...” I muttered, “dangerous.”
Sehun chuckled at this. “Well, contrary to his looks, he’s far more predatory than the usual wolves. His anti-conformity to the change made him that way. You can say he looked down on anyone, Alpha or not.”
“That’s cruel.”
He suddenly burst out laughing. “Yup. My brother’s that cruel. So I suggest you stay away. He’s not an Alpha to mess around with. I can still remember another Alpha talking about feeling like an omega when he was with hyung. Seriously, stay away.”
The suggestion kind of confused me. I wasn’t planning on meeting on his brother. If I was to decide on my fate, I’m not going to meet any Alpha soon, specifically Alphas like Kyungsoo. Sehun, maybe.
“How ‘bout you? Any story to tell?” He asked.
“Nothing really. My father got killed by the anti-change, and then my brother and I split ways. He embraced the curse and I’m the one to hate it. I decided to live in Seoul to forget what it was like to be who I am, but the full moon never failed to remind me what a beast I am.” I sighed.
“So you don’t like being wolf?”
“I do, but what happened to me in the past is something I’m not really fond off.” I explained.
“We can change that.” My voice suddenly responded but it wasn’t me, I swear. Sehun looked behind me by instinct, and I did, too. I was quick to stand up and jumped to a safe distance back when I find a mirror like reflection of me standing there.
“Hello, twin. Missed me?” It was Kai. He smirked wickedly. His hair was platinum silver, unlike the brown locks he had the last time I saw him. He waved a hand, taking the seat that I just left.
“Hi, I’m Kai.” He greeted Sehun who was still silently looking back and forth between me and my twin. My insides were raging in anger and frustration. It wasn’t supposed to be like this. Kai is not supposed to be here.
“Sehun.” The other responded absentmindedly. Kai stared at him for a while.
“You’re cute.”
“I’m sorry, Sehun. We should go.” I quickly said, taking Sehun’s arm, pulling him up to stand.
I knew that Sehun is an Alpha, a good one at that. He can stand up to Kai if he wanted, too, but my twin is much more vicious than any Alpha there is. He had a way with words that any Alpha will likely believe that Kai was an Alpha if he said so.
“I’m a far better taste, Sehun.” Kai muttered, making the both of us stop in our tracks.
“Excuse me?” I muttered back, finding the sudden remark totally unnecessary.
“Gee, we three are in heat. I came to find you because I missed you.” He said in a sarcastic tone. “And here,” pointing at Sehun, “is a good catch, twin. Can I take him?”
“Why don’t you find someone else to mess with and leave me the hell alone?” I muttered bravely. I wanted to scream my anger out. No way can I let my twin mess my life up here in Seoul.
“I live to make your life miserable, though. That’s what a twin is for.” He replied as he stood up.
“I never did that to you, Kai.”
“Regardless, that’s my life code. I love making you miserable, Jongin, that’s why I was searching for you. Thanks to a friend, I tracked you here and found you.”
“Leave me alone.”
“Leave him alone.” Sehun suddenly grunted. I felt his muscles tense up in my hand.
“No, honey.” Kai smirked, “this is family business, but you’re a good Alpha and I’d like to have a taste of you. That’s true.” He prowled, walking towards us and placing a hand over Sehun’s chest.
I watched as Sehun took a deep breath, as if inhaling my twin’s scent. I let go of my hold on him. Shit. The overflow of hormones were back to clouding my senses. The tension between me and my twin, combined with the unexplainable tension between Kai and Sehun is talking me to a dark place.
“Let’s go home.” Sehun groaned. He said it no one in particular, as he was not looking at me or Kai. He ran quickly away to our building’s direction and I ran closely behind. What pissed me off was that Kai was running beside me, trying to intimidate me with his smirks and his looks. Strangers were taking a second look at us, probably amazed by a view of twins, completely identical at that. Kai and I were said to be carbon copies of each other, except for the hair, which can be easily dyed. Apart from the colours of our hair, everything between us is the same. Our eyes, our lips, the build of our bodies, skin colours, and hell, even our voices are the same. The only thing that differentiated us was our mannerisms. I was the one to smile when Kai frowned. I was the one to shut up when Kai barks back. I was the one to love and understand when Kai rebelled. I was part of support and defence, and he’s the leader for offence.
“It’s going to fun, twin. After this heat, don’t worry. It’ll be long until I come to piss you off again.” He muttered.
“Shut up and get lost.” I whispered back. No way will I let him destroy what I built so far. Even if he said he’s to say for the week, he’s not someone to trust. Until he gets what he wants, I’m not to let my guard down against him.
“Oh come on, Jongin. We had fun during the old times, right?” He joked. Yes, there were good memories and fun competition between us when we were young, but the change turned everything around. I was placed on a disadvantage and he on a rank higher than I am.
I tried to sprint quicker, hoping for a miracle to outrun my brother. I don’t want to deal with him now, nor ever. I found Sehun stop in front our building, so I did, too, when I reached him. Kai was leisurely walking already and looking around the buildings.
“Wow, so this is where you guys live?” Kai mutters as he reached us. “This is one good life, Jongin.”
“It’s none of your business.” I snarled back. “Go back to where you came from.”
“I’m not going anywhere, twin. I’ll spice up your life for a while and-
“Shut up you two.” Sehun’s jaw was tight. He’s probably pissed off by our constant bickering.
“Sorry.” I quickly muttered. Kai chuckled.
“The heat is eating me up with you two omegas around me, okay? I’m not going to lie. I want one sweet fuck right now and I’m horny as hell and your ego battle is making my head spin. Your scents are giving me a headache.” He groaned. His fingers raked through his jet black hair, frustration obvious with the expression of his face.
“I can help you with that.” Kai bluntly said. I looked at him with disgust. He basically acts like a slut during heat and he’s not ashamed of it.
“Hell, you look, act, and talk like Jongin, but I’m not gonna take you just because of that. I feel. I’m not some bastard who takes just any willing omega.”
“Oh, come on, Alpha.” Kai whispered, closing in on Sehun once again. I push him away, standing in front of Sehun.
“Stop this, Kai. I’m not going to play games with you. Back off.” I snarled back. My wolf is getting territorial, obviously enjoying the conflict with my twin’s wolf. I don’t want this.
I sensed Sehun sighing behind me. He suddenly walked inside the building, his fists closed on both his sides. He quickly hopped onto the elevator, leaving me and Kai on the streets.
“Now we were both dumped. Hell, I want to get laid, Jongin. Give it up.” Kai muttered.
“Kai, get lost. I told you over and over I’m not gonna play games with you. Go back to where you came from and stay away from my life. I’ve had enough of you.”
He sighed and pouted suddenly. “Where’s the fun in that? Okay, sorry.” He put both his palms up. “I seriously wanted to check up on you, as a brother, believe it or not. I wanted to wait until you’re alone before I made an appearance, but hell the Alpha you were with, God, I don’t know how to explain him. You feel what I feel, right? The voice in my head, my wolf, exactly, is screaming ‘mate, mate, mate’ and it’s killing me.”
I stared at him wide-eyed, remembering what happened yesterday when I met Sehun. It wasn’t the effects of full moon. It was instincts that were telling me Sehun is my possible mate, and it was the same with Kai?
“That look in your face is ridiculously cute, twin.” He smirked. “I’ll be good for the week like a real brother and I’m off, I promise. My life’s been boring ever since you left me. Blame the full moon if I came too aggressive. I wasn’t planning on that.”
“And why am I supposed to believe you?” I asked, finding his confession unbelievable. I knew my twin by heart to just let him have his way just like that.
“I don’t know!” he screamed, crossing his arms over his chest, “I promise I’ll be good. I just wanted to see you. I know I’m a full blown jerk, but hey, putting that aside, I can be a good brother.”
“in which you failed miserably.”
“But you’re thinking about it right?” He asked. He knew me too well. I was actually on the verge of believing him, blame my caretaker instincts to accept and love all the same.
“Fine, Kai. Don’t blow this.”
“Cool. Not I won’t, but the Alpha, I’d probably will.”
“Shut up.”
X
If there was something that surprised me more than seeing my twin out of nowhere after years, it would be finding a glorious half-naked Sehun right outside my door. It was about two days after our ridiculous incident with Kai, and with my twin’s sudden appearance, I had to cancel my classes for a week at the studio. I don’t know how he knew the floor I was in, but it’s probably his wolf that led him here.
“I can smell him from inside.” Kai groaned as he approached me on the door. “What are you waiting for? Let him come inside.” He pushed me to the side, giving way to Sehun who looked out of himself. His hair was tousled, and his eyes were droopy. He looked like he just woke up. Kai ran to the kitchen as soon as Sehun stepped in and I heard clinks of glasses along with the fridge closing. I led Sehun to the couch, where Kai’s pillow and blanket was, and let him sit there. He immediately hugged the pillow, burying his face onto it.
“Here’s some water. You might need it.” Kai sweetly said. I felt like throwing up with the sudden kindness. I glared at him, unbelieving.
“I’m capable of good things, twin. Stop looking at me like that.” He mouthed.
“So, what are you doing here, Sehun?” I asked.
“Sick.” He muttered under his breath. I quickly sat beside him to check on his temperature. He was too warm. Before I pulled back my hand, he took it and rested it to his hands.
“I’m gonna get some medicine.” I said, pulling my hand away from his grasp and stood up to get to my medicine stash in the kitchen. I wonder why Sehun would come here out of nowhere. He has a brother who would take care of him anyway.
Brushing my thoughts aside, I walked back to the living room with a pill in hand, finding the room empty. “We’re in your room, twin!” Kai yelled. I found the door to my room wide open, Sehun stumbling over his feet while Kai supported his frame. He placed Sehun on my bed, tucking him below the duvet.
“He’s a big baby.” Kai mumbled. “Is he really an Alpha?”
“It’s obvious, you know.” I replied as I sat beside Sehun was half-asleep already. “Here, take this and get some sleep.” He took the pill weakly and popped it into his mouth.
“Sorry.” He whispered. “Hyung won’t be home ‘till night.”
“How sick is he?” Kai asked. He was leaning onto the wall beside my bed, looking down at Sehun.
“And you’re concerned because..?”
“I don’t know? I just am.” He replied.
Unknowingly, we took turns into checking on Sehun. The alpha slept motionless, even though we had to move him to put a shirt on him. Kai constantly put a wet towel over Sehun’s forehead, and I had to cook something for him and make him eat and drnk his medicines after.
A few hours after Sehun slept, Kai and I were quietly watching some random program on TV. My door receiver suddenly beeps, signalling that someone was waiting outside my door. I hurriedly pressed the button, and an image was shown on the screen. He was wearing a cap, hiding his face from the camera.
“Who is it?” I asked.
“Kyungsoo. I’m here to take my brother.” He replied.
My heart leapt at the sound of his voice that I had to run to get the door opened for him. Sehun told me to stay away and here I was, looking straight back at his brother.
“Is he alright?” He asked, pulling his cap off, revealing his black hair, ruffling it a little to puff it up.
“He’s sleeping.” I replied.
He took one quick breath before nodding.
“Come in.” I said, moving away. He said a quick ‘thanks’ before stepping inside. He eyed the apartment and then me, before he finally noticed another me on the couch.
“Oh, this is my twin, Kai.” I introduced. “Kai, this is Kyungsoo, Sehun’s brother.”
“Nice to meet you.” Kai smiled. It was a common thing for people to look at me and then Kai to check our similarities, and it wasn’t the case with Kyungsoo. He only looked at Kai and then back at me once, asking where his brother was. Kai was obviously offended and was putting on his wicked mask on, but I mouthed him a ‘no.’. He quickly rolled his eyes and slumped back the sofa.
“He’s in my room.” I replied, making way to my room where Sehun was. As soon as I pushed the door open, Sehun was already sitting up from the bed.
“Come on, let’s go home.” Kyungsoo muttered as soon as he found Sehun. The younger frowned, a little taken-aback with the sudden command. He just woke up anyway.
“He can stay for a while.” I said sternly. Kyungsoo’s head turned towards me.
“We’re going.” It was turning into a snarl, his fists were clenched in both his sides.
“He can stay here if he wanted to.” I replied back.
“Don’t.” Sehun whispered. We both looked at him, watching him as he planted his feet onto the carpet. “I’m better now, hyung, we can go home. Don’t go Alpha on Jongin, now.”
Kyungsoo sighed. “Sorry, I can’t control it.” He was obviously trying to hide the irritation from his voice. The reason for it was unknown to me, and I had the urge know why.
“Thanks, Jongin. Where’s Kai?” Sehun mumbled as he walked to us slowly.
“He’s watching tv outside.” I replied.
“Okay, I’ll leave you two alone.”
“I thought I should stay away from your hyung?” I chuckled. Sehun waved his hand as he ignored my question. I found Kyungsoo staring at me, brows furrowed. “What?” I inquired, not liking the look of his face. Strangely, a sweet but strong scent clouded my senses again.
“Fuck this. Get inside.” He snarled suddenly.
I didn’t budge. No way will I let another order me around in my own house.
“You can leave now if you want to. Take Sehun with you if you want.” I replied, walking away to the direction of the living room until Kyungsoo’s hand was on my shoulder, gripping on the skin tightly.
“I said get inside.” He muttered.
Unknowing of what the Alpha is planning on, I shook his hand off my shoulder and continued to walk. Suddenly, I was lifted in the air and the world was suddenly upside down. He was carrying me on his shoulder and I had no time to scream for Kai when the door was suddenly shut behind us.
“Was that hard?” He asked, pushing me to the back of the door.
“Of course. I’m not supposed to take orders from anyone inside my own house. You’re the guest here, and I’m the host.” I barked back. I’ve been in a similar situation like this, and no way am I getting bullied again.
“The hell you would. I’m the Alpha, here, Jongin.” He whispered as he closed in on me. His scent was clouding all my senses, and he smelled so sweet, my God, overriding my rational side. My wolf is prowling once again inside.
“I know you’re an Alpha.” I said, pushing him away with both my hands on his chest. He had a smaller frame than me, but he didn’t flinch at all. “But that doesn’t mean you’re an Alpha to me.”
He snickered, gently lifting his arms and placing a hand on the wood behind me, just beside my head. He leaned in to my shoulder, inhaling.
“Let’s see if that’s true.” He murmured.
“I mean it. I’m not one to be bullied, Kyungsoo. You can search for another omega.” I mumbled.
“I want to be straightforward to you, Jongin. We both are in heat. I smell you all the way down to sixth floor, while you’re up here at the thirtieth. Tell me why is that?”
“I don’t know. I’m not doing it on purpose.”
“Yes, you’re not, but I was invited here.” His lips ghosted the hollow my neck and my skin started to tingle.
“Nobody invited you here, Kyungsoo.” I did my best to appear strong, but on the inside I felt like melting. “Besides,” I thought of lying, anything that would keep me away from Kyungsoo’s predatory eyes. “I like your brother.”
He growled at this, his chest heaving as he took quick breaths. “Your wolf is telling me otherwise.”
“I know what I want. I’m attracted to your brother and that’s -
I was cut by a sharp pain at the back of my head, along with relentless lips moving brutally against mine. Strong hands were both on my arms, confining me to the wall behind me. I can’t move, not when Kyungsoo was all over me.
I tasted something metallic and I knew Kyungsoo had made my lips bleed. He pulled back a little, his lips a mere centimetre away from mine. “You smell divine, Jongin. You’re making my head spin. Since the day I saw and sensed you I had to have you.”
This is insane. I’m not going to some Alpha’s toy just because he’s in heat. I am, too, but I’ll never give myself to such animal.
“I know you’re unsubmissive, Jongin. I’m here to correct that.” He whispered in my ear.
“Excuse me?” I tried to release myself from his hold, but it was a futile attempt. An Alpha is stronger than I am.
He chuckled a little before staring straight to my eyes. His blue eyes started to glow, and my body felt weak all of a sudden, the reverie inside me melting away. I hear my wolf howling inside, calling onto another. Heat started to pool in my stomach and my head started to spin. All my senses were cut off suddenly and only Kyungsoo’s presence was invading them. “I’m taking you as mate, Jongin. Would you like that?” He asked, tracing a finger from the base of my throat and down my chest to the hem of my shirt.
He slit the cloth with his nail, revealing my torso. “Now, why don’t you try running out and tell me your wolf doesn’t want me.” He took quick steps backward, and then turned around to my bed and laid there.
I tried to breathe in and out and calm myself. My wolf is almost out of its cage and I can’t let that happen. Sehun might have been the perfect choice. He’s the kind of Alpha that would’ve loved and cared, but my wolf, my instincts and everything else was telling me otherwise.
“No. Get out of my house now!” I screamed. When I opened my eyes, Kyungsoo jumped on the bed and landed on right in front me pushing me back again against the wall.
“Fine, let’s take this the hard way. I’m your mate, for fuck’s sake. Why can’t you feel this?” He murmured with a hint of hurt and disappointment in his voice. He turned me around, pushing me harshly as he tugged my sweatpants down.
“Jongin, are you sure that you want to disobey me?” He whispered against my ear. I stood there unmoving, conflicting thoughts running inside my head. “I’m your Alpha, Jongin. I’m your mate. Listen to your wolf.” I felt warm fingers sliding along my spine, and the touch left burning tracks onto my skin. My heart was pounding, and heat continued to burn inside me.
“You’re not.” I whispered, abandoning the wild wolf inside me that is so willing to give in.
“Your body says otherwise, Jongin.” I felt his finger run up my inner thighs, “You’re leaking for me, Jongin, and you smell so sweet for me.”
“I’m in heat, that’s normal.” I mumbled back, moaning a little when I felt his finger touch slightly my entrance.
“I’m losing control here. Let it go or I won’t be gentle with you.” He groaned. “Let me say this once, Jongin. Submit. You can’t fool me with words because it was your wolf who invited me here.”
A sharp pain stung in my insides. He pushed a finger in without a word and I was already breathless. My heart was pounding in my chest. I can’t think anymore, not when Kyungsoo was thrusting in and out of me.
“Good boy.” He whispered. I felt a bubble of satisfaction in my chest, for the first time in years. “Now, I want to be really, really gentle with you. Will you let me take you here or let’s -
“Here, please.” I whispered, panting. I knew I was wet enough; my heat has prepared me all too much to be taken by an Alpha anytime. But first times always hurt, they said.
Without looking back at the Alpha behind me, I reached for the button of his jeans, feeling the hard buldge over the denim with my hand. “Let me do it, Jongin. Just stay still and let me take you.” He growled. I hear the rusting of clothes and a belt lock hitting the floor, and I can’t help but anticipate what would happen next.
He pushed his body onto my back, squeezed me with his body against mine. I felt his cock between my buttocks, teasing. He was lubricating himself with my fluids, and in no time was pushing in.
“You can back out now that I’m weak in the knees.” He whispered, halfway in. How the hell do I back out in this kind of situation? I felt my insides being ripped in half but yet I can’t scream. My wolf was patient, very, very tolerating.
“Fuck. This is what I’ve been thirsty for all my life and I found you finally.” Kyungsoo murmured as he thrusted hard in, burying him inside me. I felt my knees giving up on me, and slumped down, with Kyungsoo still behind me.
It was a compromising position for us, but I dared not to think anymore. My wolf chose my mate already and I have no power to shy away.
Kyungsoo started to thrust in and out of me, slowly at first, but hard and deep enough to let me know how much he wanted this. As he successfully elicit a moan out of me, his thrusts went faster and harder, hitting my sweet spot inside over and over. I felt him got harder inside me, pounding relentless and precise.
“Fuck, this is good.” Kyungsoo whispered, almost breathless as I am. “I’m-
I felt him swell inside, something hotter and slicker growing inside. His know was swelling. “This is what you get, Jongin. I hope you never-“ He grunted between his teeth. “fight me again.”
His thrusts became erratic and I was already a moaning mess. I felt him breach and his knot locked inside. “You feel so good, Jongin.” He moaned again. Slowly, he reached in front me and tugged my hand with his, pumping me in sync with his thrusts.
“Soo..” I moaned, feeling the pool of heat almost spilling into my release.
“Come for me, Jongin.” With a loud cry I did, and almost immediately I felt warm thick liquid spurting generously inside me. Kyungsoo came as hard, and we both found ourselves lying side by side on the floor, with his cock still inside me.
“Blame the full moon.” He panted. He snaked a hand over my waist as he pulled me closer to him.
“Blame the thirsty wolves.” I murmured back, sated and dead-tired from being claimed.
X
“Are you still going to fight over me?” Sehun asked as he sat down between me and my twin.
I heard Kyungsoo chuckling softly in the kitchen as he prepared dinner for us.
“I don’t think so.” Kai murmured as he slid closer to Sehun. “You’re mine to take, I guess.”
“Jongin told me you’re as brutal as my hyung there.” He pointed at the kitchen. I nod, agreeing to the idea.
“Yes, he is. He’s basically a bitch in a male’s body. He kills for fun and will make your life a living hell.” I muttered, remembering the days when animal attacks were the headlines in the newspapers in Bucheon before I left. It was all because of Kai and his new pack.
“It’s all in the past, Jongin. I told you I can be good if I want to.” He pouted. “But to kill is still fun. I love having someone at my mercy and-
“Shut it.” I interrupted. “I don’t want to hear gruesome details of your past and be reminded how cruel you were to me.”
“I swear, Jongin, I was just playing with you. I won’t kill you.”
“You almost did, though. That’s why I left home. You know that.” I replied back. The memories of the other Alphas from home made me cringe. I was a laughing stock.
“It was Kris and Jongdae, okay? I left them when I knew what they did to you. I tried to search you everywhere. Thanks to Minseok hyung, our tracker cousin, I found you here.”
“Dinner’s ready.” Kyungsoo said as he walked in from the kitchen. Sehun jumped up from the couch, leaving me with Kai for a few moments.
“Your new life’s great, Jongin. I’m envious, really.”
My wolf howled inside me. It was accepting, and trusting. I’m a caretaker after all, and it’s who I am. “Then stay here, I think. We can be a pack with Kyungsoo and Sehun.”
“I’m not complaining!” Kyungsoo yelled from the kitchen, letting us know what he thought of my words.
“I’ve got to call Chanyeol now and tell him what’s up. He might be worrying if you killed me already.” I remembered. I was about to reach my phone when Kai stopped me.
“About that, I’m sure Chanyeol would love the time alone. I brought Baek here in the city with me, and they found each other. Chanyeol cried a bucket when he saw his long lost love.”