jolly good. lovely of u to put this all down here. good thing i dont chk this too often for i may have replied hastily and just come off as emotional.
i LOVE how u never let me know how u truly feel about things, but whatever.
i also love how u say u do all the things i've suggested and mention talking when u are mister lets-drop-it. whatever helps u to sleep at nite buddy.
forgive me for infringing on ur time. me calling u was not meant to be as such and granted we spend loads if not all our time together but as i recall, that day i hadnt seen or heard from u til when i had called so forgive fucking me for wanting to touch base with the man i love and was waiting to hear from all fucking day. i can see i clearly give u waaaayyy too much of my attn and it is time i start treating u like u treat me.
for a treat check out my blog today. it might shed some light on why i feel u r taking me forgranted more and more each day. u only think of urself. u never spare a thought for me and it's becoming increasingly evident each day. i'm trying to ignore it and trying to understand what u're going thru which makes u so self-involved but i really dont see why i should be treated this way. i always put u first. i always consider how u will feel. i often hesitate to ask u something coz i know how u'll react but sometimes i think well gee, maybe he'll do it coz he loves me, i know i'd do it for him. and then u still say no and i think "stupid me". i will never forget that after that whole blow up with ur parents and i had decided not to ever come back to ur house but yet still i came back coz u wanted me to and i loved u enuff to do it, u still threw it back in my face making an unnecessary joke bout how i dont keep to nothing i say. for u to say such a thing, knowing how seriously i took the situation hurt me like u would never understand. i swallowed my pride for u and like everything else to do with me, u took it forgranted and then slammed it in my face. coz i ain't VIP. had the sitch been flipped i'da prolly never asked u to come back to my house and had i been desperate enuff to do so, i'da been too fucking thankful to have u to even THINK of joking about it. i'd feel like i owed u big time and would do anything to make up for such. but clearly me and u are from two diff worlds.
the reason i dont like saying things over and over is coz it's proof u don't listen to me. and if u don't listen to me, then why the fuck do i waste my time telling u anything? why am i wasting my time, period! love is eternal. i honestly believe that. but relationships can change.
I do not take you for granted, but you do have a habit of overreacting.
I do not by any means recall throwing anything in your face about the episode with my parents.
I do listen to you, and I do take the things said to heart.
Arguing with you is pointless because I'm either always wrong or I say something that throws you over the edge, at which point I see a silly squable blow up into something insane and I suggest we drop the topic before things get even worse. I'm not going to argue anything with you here, especially something that happened a while back, because it's pointless. However, but I did read your other blog and I did respond. Maybe it'll shed some light on some things, but then again perhaps not. If I obviously dont listen, take you for granted and treat you like nothing, then why be with me?
I'm a bit upset over the situation, actually. Not angry, just upset. I've explained everything in your blog so check it there. In any case, I love you loads and I hope we both feel less irritable soon.
i wasn't gonna reply to this but maybe it needs to be said and since we don't say the important stuff face to face, i'll put it here.
i'm with u because i want to be. when u give me a reason to leave, it'll prolly still take some prodding but after a while, i'll leave. my ex as u know treated me like shit for a yr and some and i stuck it out remaining forever hopeful because i wanted to. like marce said, i chose u. i like to believe in ppl coz i want ppl to believe in me. i know u dont believe in me. i see it everyday. when u dont trust me with the car, or when we're cooking and u want to run the show or when talking about random kids u just HAVE to make sure u throw in the fact u dont want any and countless other times. what u see as a silly pointless argument is me trying to understand just what is going on and releasing the ever building frustration that i constantly swallowing for ur sake. i've told u before i need to hammer things out before i can feel ok about things but still u wanna avoid the pointless argument even tho u know how much i need it to happen. i make all these adjustments for u and u do nothing for me except make me out to be a monster. trust me for once dammit! trust me that if we have the pointless argument, it's gonna be fine coz everything is gonna work out. what's funny is, as we grow older, the arguments are gonna get more and more serious so if u cant handle these babe, then why even bother looking towards a future together? u're so quick to give up, so quick to play the martyr. i remember when i was the one who was soooo scared she would mess up this relationship. i kept finding excuse after excuse for us to break up and u thought i was nuts. and yet here u are asking me why i'm still with u. *shakes head* my, how quickly times have changed.
Yip, times do change. Let's hope in our case they change for the better. I know we've discussed this on Sunday, but I'll say it again. I'll try to be less unbearable. Yeah, I'm a pain in the ass, but that's cool because you are too. I kinda like that at times :P It's no secret that we've both got issues.
We'll work through the small stuff - no sweat. It just takes getting used to I suppose; figuring out eachother's quirks and seeing what works. I'm in for the long haul, so don't go anywhere just yet.
I choose you too, babes. Who else is gonna make me peppermint tea on chilly nights?
i LOVE how u never let me know how u truly feel about things, but whatever.
i also love how u say u do all the things i've suggested and mention talking when u are mister lets-drop-it. whatever helps u to sleep at nite buddy.
forgive me for infringing on ur time. me calling u was not meant to be as such and granted we spend loads if not all our time together but as i recall, that day i hadnt seen or heard from u til when i had called so forgive fucking me for wanting to touch base with the man i love and was waiting to hear from all fucking day. i can see i clearly give u waaaayyy too much of my attn and it is time i start treating u like u treat me.
for a treat check out my blog today. it might shed some light on why i feel u r taking me forgranted more and more each day. u only think of urself. u never spare a thought for me and it's becoming increasingly evident each day. i'm trying to ignore it and trying to understand what u're going thru which makes u so self-involved but i really dont see why i should be treated this way. i always put u first. i always consider how u will feel. i often hesitate to ask u something coz i know how u'll react but sometimes i think well gee, maybe he'll do it coz he loves me, i know i'd do it for him. and then u still say no and i think "stupid me". i will never forget that after that whole blow up with ur parents and i had decided not to ever come back to ur house but yet still i came back coz u wanted me to and i loved u enuff to do it, u still threw it back in my face making an unnecessary joke bout how i dont keep to nothing i say. for u to say such a thing, knowing how seriously i took the situation hurt me like u would never understand. i swallowed my pride for u and like everything else to do with me, u took it forgranted and then slammed it in my face. coz i ain't VIP. had the sitch been flipped i'da prolly never asked u to come back to my house and had i been desperate enuff to do so, i'da been too fucking thankful to have u to even THINK of joking about it. i'd feel like i owed u big time and would do anything to make up for such. but clearly me and u are from two diff worlds.
the reason i dont like saying things over and over is coz it's proof u don't listen to me. and if u don't listen to me, then why the fuck do i waste my time telling u anything? why am i wasting my time, period! love is eternal. i honestly believe that. but relationships can change.
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You're not second to anyone in my life.
I do not take you for granted, but you do have a habit of overreacting.
I do not by any means recall throwing anything in your face about the episode with my parents.
I do listen to you, and I do take the things said to heart.
Arguing with you is pointless because I'm either always wrong or I say something that throws you over the edge, at which point I see a silly squable blow up into something insane and I suggest we drop the topic before things get even worse. I'm not going to argue anything with you here, especially something that happened a while back, because it's pointless. However, but I did read your other blog and I did respond. Maybe it'll shed some light on some things, but then again perhaps not. If I obviously dont listen, take you for granted and treat you like nothing, then why be with me?
I'm a bit upset over the situation, actually. Not angry, just upset. I've explained everything in your blog so check it there. In any case, I love you loads and I hope we both feel less irritable soon.
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i'm with u because i want to be. when u give me a reason to leave, it'll prolly still take some prodding but after a while, i'll leave. my ex as u know treated me like shit for a yr and some and i stuck it out remaining forever hopeful because i wanted to. like marce said, i chose u. i like to believe in ppl coz i want ppl to believe in me. i know u dont believe in me. i see it everyday. when u dont trust me with the car, or when we're cooking and u want to run the show or when talking about random kids u just HAVE to make sure u throw in the fact u dont want any and countless other times. what u see as a silly pointless argument is me trying to understand just what is going on and releasing the ever building frustration that i constantly swallowing for ur sake. i've told u before i need to hammer things out before i can feel ok about things but still u wanna avoid the pointless argument even tho u know how much i need it to happen. i make all these adjustments for u and u do nothing for me except make me out to be a monster. trust me for once dammit! trust me that if we have the pointless argument, it's gonna be fine coz everything is gonna work out. what's funny is, as we grow older, the arguments are gonna get more and more serious so if u cant handle these babe, then why even bother looking towards a future together? u're so quick to give up, so quick to play the martyr. i remember when i was the one who was soooo scared she would mess up this relationship. i kept finding excuse after excuse for us to break up and u thought i was nuts. and yet here u are asking me why i'm still with u. *shakes head* my, how quickly times have changed.
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We'll work through the small stuff - no sweat. It just takes getting used to I suppose; figuring out eachother's quirks and seeing what works. I'm in for the long haul, so don't go anywhere just yet.
I choose you too, babes. Who else is gonna make me peppermint tea on chilly nights?
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i'm not going anywhere, babe.
buh-leee dat!*snicker*
i love u too.
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