Silver lining shows

Apr 29, 2010 20:02

I finally feel like I am breaking through the dark clouds that depression has been holding over me. Granted the main issue is still unresolved but sometime in the next couple of weeks things will be more clearer and hopefully weights will be lifted even more.

Until then I am trying to stay out of my head as much as possible otherwise old habits come back again and again. Even now as I type this, I am speaking out loud so that I don't have my mind wandering all over the place. It is also the reason I have not blogged a great deal for the past week or more. Um...what else? Jeff says I gave him my blues but no blues come when they come; it is up to you to send them packing. I do have to admit this is the longest time since my massive anxiety attack a few years back that nearly ended badly. Again once the episode is for the most part over, things will fall more into place. Doesn't mean it will end it just means one big part will be over. I know: vague comment is vague.

I saw a rainbow this late afternoon which gives me an incredible amount of hope. I will continue to use some mantras I found in my Yoga journal magazine which at first might have sounded silly now makes more sense. Saying them out loud feels awkward but it is helpful. I think I will start wearing my mala beads again so I am reminded to be a bit more steady.

deep thoughts, meditation, rainbows, depression

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