Disgusted
So after a month of ignoring the scale I finally stepped on to see how I did. Not good is the answer; I actually gained two pounds! Granted its muscle but fuckin' hell how about that damn fat? Sure I've had my cheat days and my hot chocolates which use to be everyday are now down to every two to three days (money you know).
I know one thing is clear and I am not doing enough cardio. Now I pushed myself tonight so I'm wiped out. Its too late to eat so I have a protein shake in front of me and will grab a cold turkey bacon so I can at least take some aspirins and a potassium pill. I've decided to do cardio all week-even Kelly is on the back burner so I can jump start the weight loss! I even will kick the weight lifting to the curb (or at the very least minium weights) but this has got to stop. I almost desparate enough to go to pills in hopes it will help as long as I can cut back. I just don't do enough at this job to lose anything but I'll be DAMNED if I go back to wearing bigger sizes again.
I'm frustrated with myself but I must not beat myself down too hard. I'm still more active than I have been pretty much since I left high school.
I know one thing is clear and I am not doing enough cardio. Now I pushed myself tonight so I'm wiped out. Its too late to eat so I have a protein shake in front of me and will grab a cold turkey bacon so I can at least take some aspirins and a potassium pill. I've decided to do cardio all week-even Kelly is on the back burner so I can jump start the weight loss! I even will kick the weight lifting to the curb (or at the very least minium weights) but this has got to stop. I almost desparate enough to go to pills in hopes it will help as long as I can cut back. I just don't do enough at this job to lose anything but I'll be DAMNED if I go back to wearing bigger sizes again.
I'm frustrated with myself but I must not beat myself down too hard. I'm still more active than I have been pretty much since I left high school.