Dreams with meanings
A new year as started with an already interesting dream. I don't always remember my dreams (like a great deal of people) or they are so full of nonsense I don't bother writing them down. However this one stood out so strongly that when I woke up I was disappointed I never did find out what that guy meant by he had feelings for me.
I dreamt (after the silly shit) about a guy who pursued me all over the place. He seemed to take great delight in the fact that I could not shake him. I mean I met him on a bus after some guy tried to pull a joke on this homeless dude. At first I thought he was thinking I was part of that group that tried to play the joke and got pissed that I didn't get kicked off as well. He chased after me while I sat on the bus with this brown recycled bag w/ rope handles on the bellows of a double long bus. He managed to keep up w/ the bus for a while only to finally get lost as the bus got faster and faster. I got off the bus with this brown paper bag only to find him catch up quickly. I ran across the street to another bus stop only this time the bus pulled away before I could get to it. I saw him coming again and took off into a crowd. I don't really remember how I got to this outdoor shopping mall but I tried to loose him in a bar, then in this JoAnns or old Sav-On place that had a lot of old ladies in it. I still had this bag and felt very conscious that it being open means I might try to steal something. I ducked behind some dried flowers watching for him to enter into one of the two entrances. Meanwhile I kept low feeling that I had lost him. I backed in this one aisle and bumped into someone. I saw the blue sweater out of the corner of my eye. It was him. I jumped away giving up and asked him why he was chasing me. He smiled said something like "I'm gonna keep chasing you". And we left the store together. Outside we were strolling in the parking lot with me asking him again why did he go through all the trouble of chasing me. "Because" he says the rest I don't remember but I do remember him saying he had feelings for me. At this point I stopped him by standing in front of him suddenly noticing he was about an inch or so shorter than myself, dark hair, kinda beginnings of a hippy beard or goatee, dark eyes. Very cute. I asked him What do you mean you have feelings for me (my heart was pounding in my chest now cause it became very clear as to the why he kept popping up). So I says "tell me cause I need to know otherwise there is no use in us talking..." I kinda trailed off from there knowing that last part was just bullshit. I felt something for him too but I needed him to tell me. He was looking away and I turned his face to mind asking him to tell me. Then I said "You know what I want; I want someone who will tell me how they feel no matter how hard it is. That is sometimes the hardest thing to do." At this point some kids walking by decided to stop and listen. I turned my full attention onto them asking what they wanted. "Nothing" the shorter one says. Then I turn back to the guy who still hasn't said anything like he is waiting for more from me only I get distracted by these kids and end up kicking one kid's ass because they are pestering us so much. Still in the background I can feel this guy waiting for me to do something.
WTF does this damn dream mean??????
Well, I figured out part of it as I was in the bathroom. Well the easy part I believe. Sometimes I am very sharp eyed. But with matters of the heart I miss a lot including when someone shows interests. I often figure 1)they either are looking for sex and 2) gotta be blind because what do I have to offer them. The guy is just that, a guy I've met who happens to have real strong feelings for me and even though I run from him, he continues to follow until I figure out the why. Of course he had to tell me which isn't unusual either as I miss small details/signals people put out unless they tell me. Now that I knew he got laser focus on by me wanting almost demanding what does he mean by he has these feelings for me. I guess if I'd been patience, ignored those kids and just thought about what I was asking, I might have figured out all on my own. Perhaps that is why he wasn't talking. He knew I'd figure out how to express or open up myself without being told the how. This is why I think this dream is important enough to write down. Its a sign that I shall meet someone (who may or may not be the ONE) but their job will be to get me on the path to open myself up. To learn to read the signs I miss. Maybe to have the confidence to express my own feelings.
And I just thought right now that that those rolls could have been reversed. I could be the guy chasing someone who actually knows what I want but needs me to say so. Maybe that is why the kids were a distraction-the guy is really me trying to figure out how to say what I feel and the other person is still hanging around but is willing to wait for me to "figure it out". They won't tell me but they will wait because they feel that strongly about me, know I feel just as strongly about them and know I must tell how I feel on my own w/o help.
Hm...Anyone else wanna weigh in on this one?
I dreamt (after the silly shit) about a guy who pursued me all over the place. He seemed to take great delight in the fact that I could not shake him. I mean I met him on a bus after some guy tried to pull a joke on this homeless dude. At first I thought he was thinking I was part of that group that tried to play the joke and got pissed that I didn't get kicked off as well. He chased after me while I sat on the bus with this brown recycled bag w/ rope handles on the bellows of a double long bus. He managed to keep up w/ the bus for a while only to finally get lost as the bus got faster and faster. I got off the bus with this brown paper bag only to find him catch up quickly. I ran across the street to another bus stop only this time the bus pulled away before I could get to it. I saw him coming again and took off into a crowd. I don't really remember how I got to this outdoor shopping mall but I tried to loose him in a bar, then in this JoAnns or old Sav-On place that had a lot of old ladies in it. I still had this bag and felt very conscious that it being open means I might try to steal something. I ducked behind some dried flowers watching for him to enter into one of the two entrances. Meanwhile I kept low feeling that I had lost him. I backed in this one aisle and bumped into someone. I saw the blue sweater out of the corner of my eye. It was him. I jumped away giving up and asked him why he was chasing me. He smiled said something like "I'm gonna keep chasing you". And we left the store together. Outside we were strolling in the parking lot with me asking him again why did he go through all the trouble of chasing me. "Because" he says the rest I don't remember but I do remember him saying he had feelings for me. At this point I stopped him by standing in front of him suddenly noticing he was about an inch or so shorter than myself, dark hair, kinda beginnings of a hippy beard or goatee, dark eyes. Very cute. I asked him What do you mean you have feelings for me (my heart was pounding in my chest now cause it became very clear as to the why he kept popping up). So I says "tell me cause I need to know otherwise there is no use in us talking..." I kinda trailed off from there knowing that last part was just bullshit. I felt something for him too but I needed him to tell me. He was looking away and I turned his face to mind asking him to tell me. Then I said "You know what I want; I want someone who will tell me how they feel no matter how hard it is. That is sometimes the hardest thing to do." At this point some kids walking by decided to stop and listen. I turned my full attention onto them asking what they wanted. "Nothing" the shorter one says. Then I turn back to the guy who still hasn't said anything like he is waiting for more from me only I get distracted by these kids and end up kicking one kid's ass because they are pestering us so much. Still in the background I can feel this guy waiting for me to do something.
WTF does this damn dream mean??????
Well, I figured out part of it as I was in the bathroom. Well the easy part I believe. Sometimes I am very sharp eyed. But with matters of the heart I miss a lot including when someone shows interests. I often figure 1)they either are looking for sex and 2) gotta be blind because what do I have to offer them. The guy is just that, a guy I've met who happens to have real strong feelings for me and even though I run from him, he continues to follow until I figure out the why. Of course he had to tell me which isn't unusual either as I miss small details/signals people put out unless they tell me. Now that I knew he got laser focus on by me wanting almost demanding what does he mean by he has these feelings for me. I guess if I'd been patience, ignored those kids and just thought about what I was asking, I might have figured out all on my own. Perhaps that is why he wasn't talking. He knew I'd figure out how to express or open up myself without being told the how. This is why I think this dream is important enough to write down. Its a sign that I shall meet someone (who may or may not be the ONE) but their job will be to get me on the path to open myself up. To learn to read the signs I miss. Maybe to have the confidence to express my own feelings.
And I just thought right now that that those rolls could have been reversed. I could be the guy chasing someone who actually knows what I want but needs me to say so. Maybe that is why the kids were a distraction-the guy is really me trying to figure out how to say what I feel and the other person is still hanging around but is willing to wait for me to "figure it out". They won't tell me but they will wait because they feel that strongly about me, know I feel just as strongly about them and know I must tell how I feel on my own w/o help.
Hm...Anyone else wanna weigh in on this one?