I still examine my hand occasionally.. in awe?
Number Five With A Bullet
Taking Back Sunday
We're gonna die like this, you know
Miserable and old
Really gotta hand it to you
really gotta hand it to you
Are you positive?
Absolutely sure?
Well just get dressed, don't do this
Just get dressed, Don't do this
You spent the night lit and listening to Miles Davis
You said that makes you want to fall in love
Or be smart enough to keep your distance
You can't decide
you can't decide
We're gonna die like this, you know
Miserable and old
Really gotta hand it to you
Really gotta hand it to you (just so you know)
Are you positive? (When we get home)
Absolutely sure? (We're through)
Just get dressed, Don't do this (We're through)
Just get dressed, Don't do this
It's a long way back south
And to where I belong
Well yeah you've been there once or twice
And you still don't like it
I say, You just never gave it a chance
Well give me a chance
Give me a chance
Besides, Did you ever stop to think
that We could keep this up, Living like thieves?
But you can't decide
You can't decide
No you can't decide
Well you can't decide
We're gonna die like this, you know (We're gonna die like this)
Miserable and old (Miserable and old)
Really gotta hand it to you (Miserable and old)
Really gotta hand it to you (just so you know)
Are you positive? (When we get home)
Absolutely sure? (We're through)
Just get dressed, Don't do this (We're through)
Just get dressed, Don't do this now
Are you positive?
Absolutely sure?
Are you positive?
We're gonna die like this, you know
Miserable and old
Really gotta hand it to you
Really gotta hand it to you (just so you know)
We're gonna die like this, you know (when we get home)
Miserable and old (we're through)
Really gotta hand it to you (we're through)
Really gotta hand it to you (just so you know)
Are you positive?(When we get home)
Absolutely sure? (We're through)
Just get dressed don't do this (We're through)
Just get dressed don't do this
just so you know (we're gonna die like this, you know)
When we get home (just as long as we)
We're through (we're gonna die like this, miserable and old, and old, miserable and old)
Well just so you know (we're gonna die like this, you know) (miserable and old)
When we get home (just as long as we) (miserable and old)
We're through (we're gonna die like this, miserable and old) The reason for my being single has never come from the outside as I've always asserted. It's been my claim that the reason I don't have a girlfriend are the expectations they hold of me. 'Girls prefer assholes and will take advantage of nice guys' or 'Expectations of me are too rigid and strict.' I've also said that there's no way for me to get out and meet someone new, because everywhere I could go I'd meet harsh criticisms for wherever I'd chosen to go. All these and more have always bothered me, because I can't completely believe them.
There's a logical part of me that won't accept an explanation if it doesn't have formal logical backing. This is why I have take no part of my parent's religion. This logical side of me never really lets me accept the arguments I set for myself in regard to my relationship status. The truth is that the only constant throughout all my failures had been me. I am the reason I don't have anything approximating a girlfriend. I realized last night through an idle joke.. I'm phobic. I have an irrational fear of attempting a courtship. I've had phobias before, but it took me so long to realize this because this phobia is so powerful! I am so powerfully frightened that I'm not entirely sure what I'm phobic of! I feel like I am the opposite of a magnet to this thing I wish I could do, but I simply can't. If I were to force myself to do it there is no doubt in my mind that it would destroy me. I really need a therapist >.<