Sadness and Regret
We had fire in our eyes
In the beginning I
Never felt so alive
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't want to hear it anymore
I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore
We had time on our side
In the beginning we
We had nothing to hide
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't want to hear it anymore
I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore
You say that I didn't try
You say that I didn't try
You say that I didn't try
I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymoreI try to make an effort to keep my posts lighthearted and amusing. At times it's necessary to pause to evaluate myself. My outward self always makes that attempt to be friendly and cheerful because that is what I enjoy seeing most in other people. It's much easier for everyone around me if I set the pace by joking and laughing. Just beneath the act I am a cynic and an analyst. Yes, I am constantly watching everyone, gauging their reactions and words. I always fear that I may use what I learn about a person against them. I fear this aspect of myself so much that I'll often let a person have their way even though I realize that I'm being subtly manipulated.
Fear is the another big aspect of me that I tend not to show. There are certain physical manifestations of this fear. Never try to give me a back massage, for one. Uttering one of my trigger words/phrases will net you another fearful reaction. I won't tell you any of those. I think my biggest fear is caring. I'm afraid to care about things because.. when you care you get hurt. When you care, you always get hurt. There are no exceptions. I know that now.
P.S. The song lyrics are not about you.
In the beginning I
Never felt so alive
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't want to hear it anymore
I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore
We had time on our side
In the beginning we
We had nothing to hide
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't want to hear it anymore
I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore
You say that I didn't try
You say that I didn't try
You say that I didn't try
I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymoreI try to make an effort to keep my posts lighthearted and amusing. At times it's necessary to pause to evaluate myself. My outward self always makes that attempt to be friendly and cheerful because that is what I enjoy seeing most in other people. It's much easier for everyone around me if I set the pace by joking and laughing. Just beneath the act I am a cynic and an analyst. Yes, I am constantly watching everyone, gauging their reactions and words. I always fear that I may use what I learn about a person against them. I fear this aspect of myself so much that I'll often let a person have their way even though I realize that I'm being subtly manipulated.
Fear is the another big aspect of me that I tend not to show. There are certain physical manifestations of this fear. Never try to give me a back massage, for one. Uttering one of my trigger words/phrases will net you another fearful reaction. I won't tell you any of those. I think my biggest fear is caring. I'm afraid to care about things because.. when you care you get hurt. When you care, you always get hurt. There are no exceptions. I know that now.
P.S. The song lyrics are not about you.