Jul 23, 2009 00:57
A lot of time has been taken over the past years to worrying of what I haven't become, when I promised so much to so many. Though the grand cliche I was the only person that I made promises to and thus the only person who could be let down.
That being dealt with the next issue to resolve would be to understand why I am lazy, or perhaps more correctly why I lack the ambition to create the change I desire.
-Is it too early to only desire having a garden and a kitchen of my very own.
-Goals should be lofty and inspiring, or something similar. Right?
-How much of this is generated by a dissatisfying working environment?
-When did mental health services become so hostile?
As of late of invoke hostile reactions from the public I encounter it doesn't really matter in what situation, or I happen to be completely invisible. It only helps to prove that I lake interactive skills, which is not something I would want to prove true.
Think positive, only three more weeks. Maybe it will all change.
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